Random Thoughts

Lola

I already have my own family, I have my patient husband and our cute little man.

Sabi nila, mas mahal ng magulang ang mga apo. And based on my observation and stories based from my friends who already have their own kiddos, what they say was true.

Totoo! Mas matimbang ang apo kesa anak. Naniniwala naman ako sa sabi-sabi na 'yon dati pa, pero mas naniwala ako nang magkaroon ako ng anak. Mas matimbang talaga ang anak ko sa nanay ko.

When I gave birth, si nanay ang nag-alaga ng baby ko habang hindi ko pa kaya, and kahit na kaya ko na kahit paano, she's still there to help me. She was more like the real mother of my child. Of course that's normal, because every mother wants what's best for their child - and even grandchild.

For the past almost four months, she's really a hands-on lola to my baby. I hire someone who can look after my baby since I have to go back to work already, but the one I hire was more like of a kasambahay than a baby-sitter. Kapag oras na para dumede ang anak ko, my mother will stop whatever she's doing so she will be the one who will feed my son. If she's cleaning, yung baby-sitter na ang tatapos sa nililinis ng nanay ko.

It's not a bad thing, it's a good actually. Honestly, gusto ko na sana ako ang mag-alaga at magpalaki sa baby ko, but hindi pwede. If I stop working, we can't provide everything that my baby will need in the future. Of course my husband has a job, but I guess his income wont be enough for the three of us. Ang laki at dami ng gastos kapag may baby ka, I swear to God, trust me!

So back to my mother. One time Nabanggit ko sa kanya na balak na namin bumukod, kasi sa bahay pa rin ng magulang ko kamo nakatira. Hindi niya ako kinibo for a week because of that. After a week, hindi na siya nakatiis at sinabi niya sa asawa ko na ayaw niya talaga na umalis kami sa bahay.

We compromised! We both agreed to it! Everybody happy!

I can see and feel myself how they love my sob, their grandson, their nephew. They all wanted to be with him, they all want to make him smile and giggle. They always kissed him, and play with him. Masaya. Masaya ako sa mga nangyayari. Masaya ako at mahal na mahal nila ang anak ko!