Getting Through it Together || Muke

Chapter 15

When Ashton kissed her, Halia felt this heat run all through her body. She wanted more, she craved it. Coming back to her senses, she pulled away from Ashton. She tried to hold in tears, she couldn't be in a relationship.

"I'm sorry," Ashton said.

Halia looked down, to embarrassed to look at anyone, "someone take me home please," she said quietly.

Luke wrapped an arm around her shoulders and took her out of the studio. They got into a cab and Luke looked at Halia.

"What was that?" asked Luke.

"I don't know, I just, I don't know. Just leave it alone Luke," Halia snapped.

He put his hands in his defense, "sorry, it just shocked me," Luke said.

"It shocked me too," Halia mumbled quietly. Luke decided to ignore her comment. He knew she was shocked and needed her space.

They got back to the house and Halia immediately ran up to her room and slammed the door shut. Halia was so frustrated and sad and happy at the same time she didn't know what to do. She put her face in her pillow and screamed until her throat hurt. Tears were coming out of her eyes and slowly, the memories started to come back.

Memories of her last relationship. Memories of the night that it fell apart. The image of him in bed with another girl, burned into her mind with flames of pain and agony. She made a strangled noise. trying to contain her sobs.

Halia stumbled into the bathroom, struggling to move. Flashbacks were hitting her like tidal waves. She managed to get into the bathroom, slamming the door behind her, yet she forgot one thing. She forgot to lock the door.

****I LISTENED TO STOP BY DALTON RAPATTONI WHILE WRITING THIS. IF YOU WANT THE FULL EXPERIENCE YOU SHOULD TOO.****

Halia reached for her shaving razor. She slammed it on the ground and hit it with a shampoo bottle. It broke and she grabbed one of the razors the fell out of it.

Still shedding tears from the horrible flashback, she lifted up her shirt and quickly swiped the sharp piece of metal over her skin.

She did this a number of times until she went too deep and she cried out in pain, loudly. She knew she messed up. She heard footsteps coming up the stairs and she knew that someone was going to catch her.

"Halia?" Luke called from the hall way.

Halia didn't bother to quiet her small sobs.

"Halia? Are you in here?" Luke asked as he opened the door. He gasped when the full view of her was in his eye.

"Oh.. No no no. Halia why?" Luke said, trying to not scream in frustration.

"I, I don't, I don't know," Halia mumbled, dropping the razor to the ground.

Luke sighed, obviously fighting back tears, "c'mon, let's get you cleaned up. It will all be okay, I promise,"

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Currently, Ashton was still at the studio, alone. He had broken three sticks in the time he was there, and he had written a whole song. So many emotions were running through his body at once, he didn't know what else to do. 

Ashton didn't know why he kissed Halia, maybe he thought she'd actually like it? Of course not. No one likes Ashton. Ashton's always been the odd one out. He didn't start with the band, he was just added on. No one really cared about Ashton. (A/N: It's fucking killing me to write this. ugh.)

Ashton thought about all of the girls out there who told Ashton to cut himself. He didn't, he already had to go through it with Luke. All of those girls that told Ashton that he was trash and the band would be better off without him. 

Countless nights were spent with Ashton crying while looking through his twitter mentions. The boys always told Ashton that it wasn't true, but Ashton was starting to believe the people who hated him. 

Hitting the crash one last time, Ashton threw his sticks down and ran out of the studio. He drove back to the house only to find that Luke was sitting on the counter, on his phone probably browsing through twitter. Knowing that Luke was probably pissed off at him, Ashton approached him slowly. 

"Ashton," Luke said flatly, not looking up from his phone. 

"Hi Luke," Ashton said, sitting on the counter next to the younger boy.

"Do you know why I hate this world Ashton?" Luke asked, putting his phone down and turning his head to look at Ashton. 

Ashton shook his head.

"I hate this world because no ones ever really happy. There's always something that brings you down every second of every day. It's not fair that, I have to have anorexia. It's not my fault that I'm depressed. It's not Halia's fault that she lost it again. Everyone gets broken sometimes, right now is one of those times for Halia,

"I must admit, I thought I wasn't going to get this close to Halia as fast as I did. It's been a week and I feel like I've known her my whole life. There's just this feeling of needing to protect her, needng her to be okay. She's been hurt by a relationship not to long ago, and she doesn't need to be hurt again Ashton," Luke ranted. 

Ashton looked at his hands, "I know that she doesn't need to be hurt again. I'll stay away from her Luke. I promise,"

"No, that is the opposite of what you need to do," Luke said, grabbing Ashtons shoulder.

"What?" the older boy said.

"You need to fix her Ashton. I know you're already in love with her, I can see it. Fix her," Luke said and walked off. 

And that's what Ashton was going to do, he was going to fix her.

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Calum was sat a small coffee shop in the middle of Sydney. He was drinking hot tea while following random fans on twitter and seeing there reaction. He loved the feeling that he got when he saw how happy he made people. But one problem that Calum had was, he didn't know if he was happy or not.

Sure, he had his band, and he had Halia, but he still felt empty sometimes. Luke and Michael were together, and they were so happy together. Ashton and Halia were obviously going to get together sometime soon, so where did that leave Calum? It left Calum, in a coffee shop, alone. 

He heard the door ring as a flustered looking girl with glasses and a lot of journals walked in the door. They locked eyes and Calum had a thought. Maybe he wouldn't have to be so alone anymore.

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I included more Calum, and that small thing will continue in the next chapter.

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