The Canadian Nerd | Shawn Mendes

Part 12

Lauren's POV

I didn't sleep a wink last night. Well maybe that was a little over the top. I got at least an hour or so, but that was it. I was up most of the night worrying about Shawn. I didn't want him to go back to that house, Aaliyah too.

But Shawn was going to meet his mom's boyfriend today, and he said he'd call me if anything went wrong. Hopefully, I wouldn't get a call like that. But I do hope I get to talk to him, it feels a little lonely without him. Or Matt, Jack, and Jen. I can't remember the last time me and Jen hung out, outside of school.

Today I was going to hang out with Cameron. The first time in forever. I really hope this time he'd be nicer. I guess I'm not mad at him for the crappy apologize. I just want to get over it because I love him and I don't want to start another fight. Even if we probably don't go out and end up watching some movie that Cameron brings. I would be happy doing whatever, if it was what he wanted.

Getting out of bed I get up and ready.

Cameron wouldn't be here until 10 so I had some time. I walk downstairs to find Mom half asleep on the couch, while papers surrounded her. She must have been up all night correcting papers and essays. I mean she does teach at a collage there has to be at least 100 assignment sitting beside her.

Making my way into the kitchen, I start on the coffee. After starting that, I poor myself some cereal. And just as the smell of coffee hits the air. Mom comes into the kitchen with tired eyes.

"Good morning, sunshine. Sleep well?" She asks.

"I didn't sleep much... What about you? Did you sleep well?" I ask, finishing my bowl and rinsing it off.

"I sleep fine." She pours the finished coffee into a cup. "Got any plans today? Because I got to go in today to meet with some students, then I have a meeting. So I won't be here for most of the day, but I will be here for dinner."

I pour myself some coffee next. "I was planning on hanging out with Cam today." I say, taking a sip of my drink.

"Really? I didn't think you two were still going at it." She questions, as she sets up her laptop on the island.

My eyebrows fold together. How would she think that?

"Well we are... why would you think we weren't dating?"

"I though you and Shawn had something. After that scene the other day. I assumed that you'd go for a more caring guy like Shawn." Mom says, typing something.

"Shawn is just a friend, Mom." I say, but once I did my stomach turned. "And Cameron is caring, he just doesn't show it to some people." I argue.

My mom meets my gaze and raises an eyebrow. "Honey, I hate to break it to you but that boy is not caring. At least not with you. Anyone with eyes can see that he is using you."

"Mom!" I exclaim.

How could she say that? How could she think that!? Cameron was not using me. I would know if he was... I'm not that oblivious... Right? No. I am not doubting Cam. He is not using me, I will not believe it.

My mom seemed to see my expression before softening her features. "I'm sorry, Lauren. That was out of line. If he makes you happy and you truly love him for who he is... I'll trust him."

I nod and excuse myself to go to my room.

Plopping onto my bed, I start to think more. Did Cameron make me happy? I mean I did love him. He is sweet to me and is funny. He always comments on how "hot" I look. I'm always checking to see if what I'm wearing is okay or if my makeup is the way he likes it. Cameron also protects me, mostly from guys, but he does.

Even though he hasn't said it. I know he loves me or at least cares enough for me. I know I love him.

My phone beeps making me jump and snap out of my thoughts.

I grab my phone and see that it's a text from Shawn. I smile as I read it. Morning, Lauren! Hope you slept well. Will update you soon about the situation soon.

I slept... okay, Thx for asking. :) And hope that guy doesn't bring to much trouble.

Putting my phone down I turn on my small TV and watch Stranger Things on Netflix. A couple episodes, the door bell rings, so I turn it off and head to the door with a smile. By now, Mom was long gone and so me and Cameron have the place to ourselves.

"Hey, babe." Cameron says. "I got the movie, I know how much you like action movies." He holds up, Deadpool.

I scrunch my eyebrows together. I do not like action movies. In fact I hated them, they got boring and I didn't enjoy them as much as I did with Romance's or Drama's. I shake my head and put on a smile as he slips inside.

"Sounds good."

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It seemed like forever until the movie was over. Sure there were funny parts and they made me smile. But I just wasn't having fun. We did this every time and it was getting annoying. Very annoying.

I mean maybe I'd enjoy it more if we watched something I like. We always watch Cam's choice of movie. Even the taste of popcorn got old to me. And with Cameron constantly trying to touch me, or when ever I moved my position, he brought me back to a bone crushing snuggle.

What made it worse was how he pulled me into a sloppy kiss afterwards. I was starting to notice that. He turned everyone of our kisses, sloppy and full of tongue. Maybe that's how he likes it. But I sure don't. I have never told him, and don't plan to because it might hurt his feelings. But kissing was not Cam's forte.

Pulling away, he smirks at me. "When does your mom get back?"

"Sometime before dinner." I say.

"Perfect. That just enough time..." He trails off as he starts to kiss down my neck, and before I could ask what he meant.

Pushing me back he hovers over me. Meeting my mouth with his again, he roughly kisses me. My mind keep focusing on how his breath tasted like pepperoni pizza. It kind of grossed me out.

Okay, why do I keep thinking of Cameron like this? I use to love movies with him (sometimes), and his cuddles. I would never worry about his breath, and my eyes were never wide open like they are now. I love Cameron. None of this should matter if you love someone... right?

Why do I have all these doubts?

Wait a minute! Red flag! Red flag! Cameron was taking off my shirt. I wasn't ready for that. Now I know what he meant when he said there would be enough time.

Another thing you should know about Cameron. He is always bugging me about sex. I am not ready for that yet. But he keeps pulling stuff like this and it always ends with me saying no and him getting mad and leaving.

Buzz! Buzz! My phone goes off saving me from having to tell Cameron no.

I grab it as I push Cam off. "Come on babe..... that can wait. I want you so bad baby...." He begs. I roll my eyes and open the phone.

My eyes widen as I read the text. Also making me jump up and grabbing my coat. I shove it on along with my shoes.

"Babe! What the fuck?! What's up?" Cameron stands from the couch.

I ignore him and shove my phone in my pocket and grab my keys. I rush out the door and start my car as Cameron yells my name and follows. "I got to go Cam! It's important." I say out the window to an annoyed and confused Cameron.

With that I drive away.

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From Shawn,
HELP! ITS BAD LAUREN!

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Got my laptop!!!! Now I will be uploading so much more I promise. Plus it won't be as bad as  writing because in the past I was on my phone.

Hopefully you liked this chapter! In the next I will probably start with Shawn's day to fill you in... but until then thanks for stinking up with my crappy updating system. I know it's been a while and I'm sorry.