Testing the limits

chapter 18

fun in funeral

              We are on our way to Angie' s funeral in south Carolina. Its about an hour drive. We were all packed in my step-dads pickup truck in the back. We were almost there when we got stuck in traffic. We were right behind Angies  parents. We didn't talk. Just looked at each other. It was heart breaking. We finally arrived at the corner funeral home and I couldn't, I wouldn't, walk in.  I sat there for 5 minutes because I didn't want to see her. I finally walked in. It was worse than I thought. She was all white, like a ghost, so, so motionless. I didn't like it. I touched her hand. No.

I grabbed her hand. And I held it tighter than I ever did.

Ouch.

I yelled a little and stood back. A little girl had fallen on a chair. Her leg was cut a little.  I went back to The coffin. I grabbed  her hand again and I talked to her for a while. It would  great if she answered. But nothing. Just the murmur or voices. I took my seat and waited for the priest to take the podium. He talked for an hour. Each word burning a hole in my heart. Each hole causing my sole to be sent away. She was my world. My every thing. The gravity that held me down. Now I was floating around never to be held down again. Its not fun. Its horrid. Ugly. Despicable. I hate this feeling. I missed her.. Ill miss her. forever.

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        Its the first day of school. without Angie I was all alone at the bus stop. Ashlynn and Hayes didn't ride my bus Because they lived 11 blocks away. I don't think I could do this. The only thing that pushed me was having Her picture on every binder  And writing her name on my wrist. This day, would be my nightmare. My death. My hell on Earth. Everybody has seen to forgotten about her. But I haven't I have half her room in my room. And ill never let go. My first day of school. New bus driver. New students. New locker. New classes. shoot me. This should be good.

I got on the bus and sat alone. For the first time. I was the last stop and there was really nobody on the bus. I got out my phone and texted Christy.

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c=Hey how's school going?

R=I'm on the bus. And not good.

C=I'm sorry. I wish I could be there.

R=don't be. Its not your fault.

C=ok. I miss you and I'll visit you. :)

R= ok :). thank you. I miss you too.

C= ok. Im at school.Ill text you after .

R= ok. Bye. have a good Day :D

C= You tooo :)

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I got off the bus. Go pushed into a puddle and hit my head on a brick sign. My head was split open. I had a concussion. And I was upset.  FML I screamed In my hospital bed. Christy was visiting me soon and I had Angies teddy bear. Creepy. Naww. I love the thing. And it loves me.

I hope. :/

sorry for the short chapter. Im just off my game this week. ):

thanks anyway guys.