Welcome To My Odd Mind

Talking to my other self

Psych- I didn't want to change. I had to. It wasn't my choice, it was what the world did.

Psycho- THEN STOP IT! This isn't who you are! You've become something else, something stupid! Your mind flows with thoughts you never had before, so why have them now?! GETT RID OF THEM! Erase your mind from that cheesy romance shit, because it's never gonna fucking happen! You're hated by almost everyone, what makes you think you'll ever find love?! JUST FUCKING LET IT GO, BECAUSE THE ONE PERSON WHO RESPECTED YOU IS SLOWLY STARTING TO HATE YOU, BECAUSE YOU'RE BECOMING EVERYTHING SHE'S NEVER WANTED YOU TO BE!

Psych- I DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS! It just happened to me, and it'll happen to her too! I know it! Someday she'll know exactly how I feel, and not only that, but she'll hate it just like me! EMOTIONS ARE FUCKING HARD, OKAY?! I hate this just as much - no, MORE - than she does! Do you know how it is living with the fact that you can't be loved no matter how fucking hard you try?! And even when you do find it, your friend will fucking hate you for it, and leave you to rot! I didn't fucking want to change at all, this wasn't me! I'm not that other girl anymore! I want to be her again, but I fucking can't!

Psycho- DOES IT LOOK LIKE I CARE?! This isn't for me, it's for you, and for your friend! You need to turn away from this stupid emotional crap! IT JUST ISN'T YOU! She doesn't want this, so fight it back!

Psych- BUT I CAN'T FIGHT IT! I HAVE TO FACE THIS, WHETHER ANYONE LIKES IT OR NOT! THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO PAY FOR TRYING TO BE HAPPY!

Psycho- Silver doesn't want this...she doesn't need it either. You're fucking killing her, she's gonna just leave you, and you'll have nothing.

Psych- Can't I just be like the others? Free to speak, free to think, free to be the freak I've become?

Psycho- No. You can't. She's worth more to you, the people you've met here can go fuck themselves. They aren't your friends, you've never seen them, you don't know how they really are. For all you fucking know they hate you for what you've become. Silver...she's an actual friend. At least, she used to be.

Psych- I know she hates me for this, I know it. But just because I'm a freak like the others, that doesn't mean I'm not her friend! In real life, I hate that stuff just as much - maybe more - than she does! It's just...

Psycho- Just WHAT?

Psych- It's just fiction. It's just a game...

Psycho- If you keep playing the game like this, then she'll end up with a game over, whether you win or lose.

Psych- Then what am I supposed to do, huh? Leave Wattpad? Try to erase myself from this whole thing? Is being just like other girls wrong?

Psycho- Yes, yes and yes. This has turned you into a monster.

Psych- .........fine..........