My Broken Thoughts

17/11/15

I look at you,
I can't help but smile,
I was asked today,
If you and I,
Had a thing,
How I wish I could say yes,
This feeling,
These moments,
How I wish I could tell you,
Just how happy you make me,
You are amazing my dear
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I just want to tell you how I feel,
I'm not in love but,
I really like you,
Around the boys I can be me,
Around you I'm nervous,
To scared to say anything,
In case it's the wrong thing
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He feels alone,
Even in a crowded room,
You can see it on his face,
The pain in his eyes,
Is hard to mistake,
I look at him and smile,
So many times,
When I've been down,
He made me feel better,
Sitting here,
I wished I could do the same,

To describe him is impossible,
He is simply him,
He makes me smile,
He makes me laugh,
Me makes me feel at homecoming
It's been a while since I let,
Anyone get this close,
I'm glad it's him
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I can't stand,
To see you like this,
It hurts knowing,
There is nothing I can do,
The pain in your eyes,
Is obvious,
I just wish I could help,
I care about you,
More then I probably should,
But,
I don't know what to do,
I just hope you will be okay.
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Will it make or break me,
Will it make or break us,
I wish I could tell you....
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It hurts I can feel it,
It feels like my heart is breaking,
There's an ache in my chest.
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Doesn't matter how much I write.... Nothing will change... It hurts... Physically... Not just emotionally... The pain is getting worse... Cleaning and writing don't helps as much as they used to... I'm scared that I will go back to the blade... Will going back to Melton make or break me.
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Don't look at me like that,
Don't care about me,
Because it's the small things,
That give me hope,
It's those small things,
That are making me fall,
I don't want that,
Unless i know for sure,
You will catch me,
So please,
Don't look at me that way,
My heart is broken enough,
I can't handle more pain.
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17/11/15