Crazy, Beautiful Mistake. [ON HOLD INDEFINITELY]

The Bad Boy Comes Around.

It's been a couple days since my 4 and a 1/2 month appointment and I've been secretly panicking because I'm having twins. How am I going to take care of one baby at such a young age? Never mind twins! Jackson has been looking at me when he thinks I don't notice as if he's mustering up the nerve to talk to me but I just ignore it. I don't have the patience nor a sound state of mind to deal with him or anyone right now.

Unfortunately someone didn't take the hint because when I'm at my locker I feel a presence behind me. Low and behold it's Jackson! I look at him and instantly turn around to finish what I'm doing and close my locker. Just as I'm about to walk away he stops me.

"Wait! I wanted to be there I swear it's just something came up and I had to take care of it. I meant what I said I want to be a good dad. A better dad than the one I have," he pleaded to me.

"I'm having twins Jackson," I exasperatedly told him. "You barely wanted to be there for me when I thought I was having one baby I doubt you'll want to be there for me now that I'm having twins so I relieve you of your duties," I told him and turned back around to go to homeroom.

I'm starting to think maybe adoption would be the best for my children. As much as I hate the thought and as much as it might kill me I need to look out for them. I stopped mattering the second I saw the positive symbol on the pregnancy test.

I had almost made it to my class when I felt someone unexpectedly grab my arm and turn me around.

Jackson was standing there looking really pissed off. "You don't get to do that!," he yelled at me rather loudly. "You don't get to decide whether I'm there for them or not I decide that!"

"Look I know you're trying to do the right thing but maybe adoption is what's best for...."

"Stop! Don't you dare say what I think you're saying. Those are my children too and we're supposed to decide this together but...."

"TOGTEHER?! Where were you when I found out? or when I had my first five appointments?!!," he put his head down in guilt as I exploded on him. "Exactly so there is no 'together' or an 'us' there's just me and I'LL decide what's best for MY children!"

"I know I wasn't there okay!," he said running a frustrated hand through his hair making parts of it stick up. I had an immediate urge to reach out and fix it but I stopped myself. "I'm trying to do the right thing now for the babies and for you. I was a dick the way I took advantage of your innocence and treated you like shit afterwards. I swear that's not who I am and I will spend the rest of my life proving it to you if I have to," he said looking at me with those eyes and I just melted.

He reached out and pushed a piece of my hair behind my ear while caressing my cheek. I tensed at first but then started to relax as he moved closer to me closing all distance between us. "I'm all in Lani...please let me prove it to you?," he pleaded.

I stared into his eyes and he seemed so sincere but I've been wrong before. I quickly swallowed my fear of getting hurt and told him what I never thought I'd say, "Okay but this is your last chance Jackson I swear if you hurt me...." Before I could finish he smashed his lips to mine and I instantly kissed him back with all I had in me. In that moment I knew I was totally head over heels for this boy.

"Well that was a nice way to shut me up," I smiled and laughed at him as he laughed right along with me.

"It was wasn't it?," he said with a cocky tone and a smirk on his face. I playfully shoved him and he just laughed again. "I'll see you after school okay?," he asked walking backwards to get to his homeroom that he was now late for. I smiled and nodded at him. He then rushed off and I turned around to finish going to my homeroom with the biggest smile on my face.

I looked up and saw some people had been listening and my happiness instantly vanished. I remembered where we were and realized that now people know he's the father. 'My life is about to become hell' I thought to myself as I slapped my hand to my forehead. I would give anything to be home right now.

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I could feel all eyes on me as I was sitting in the cafeteria. The more I felt people's stares the less hungry and more angry I became. I could hear people whispering and creating lies about me. If I was to say it didn't hurt I'd be lying because everything I hear someone whisper tears me down just a little more every time.

"Hey I'm just gonna go home early today," I told Kaiya and her boyfriend Liam as I pushed my food away and got up to leave.

"Hey don't listen to them okay? You're a beautiful intelligent girl. It's him who doesn't deserve you not the other way around," Kaiya stated rather sternly. I hugged her and whispered a 'thank you.' I love her so much I'd be nowhere without her as my best friend right now.

I made my way out to my car not bothering to stop at the office and tell them I'm going home because I could care less right now. All I wanted was to get home crawl into bed with some snacks and watch Criminal Minds. I was about to open my door when I heard someone tsking me. I smiled instantly, "Are you like stalking me now?"

Jackson laughed, "No I saw you leave the cafeteria you looked upset so I followed you. Why are you leaving?," he asked me while giving me a confused look.

"I'm just tired of listening to them judge me because I'm pregnant and hearing how I'm not pretty enough or good enough to be with you. How I'm a slut and tricked you into sleeping with me just so I could get pregnant...."

"Hey!," he yelled suddenly angry. "That's not true and you know it! Let them be petty and talk all their shit but the truth of the matter is I'm head over heels for you. I've seen you lately and how strong you're being and I look at you with admiration. I feel absolutely guilty for how I treated you and if I could go back and do it over the only thing I would change is how I treated you after. I was blessed when you got pregnant even though it took me a moment to realize it. We don't know each other well and I haven't known you very long but you are possibly the best thing to happen to me and don't ever let them make you think otherwise."

I didn't realize how close he was to me or that I was crying until he reached out and wiped my tears. "Do you wanna come keep me company as I pig out on snacks and watch Criminal Minds?," I asked him with a hopeful smile.

"Hell yes!," he said excited which made me smile even bigger. "But no pigging out on snacks that's not good for the baby," he stated matter of factly.

I scowled at him, "Never mind you can't come," I told him as I got in the car. I shut the door and stuck my tongue out at him while he just laughed at me. I have to say I love this new Jackson and maybe giving him a second chance was the best thing I could've done today we'll just have to see how things go.