Modern Day Bonnie And Clyde

46. Coocious to the rescue

Tiana POV

"So hakeem, how are you today?" Mrs. Jefferson says smiling at my husband.

"I'm good just taking it one day at a time" he says.

"Have you been sleeping?" She questions.

"Okay, T is patient with me she tries to stay up with  me till I fall asleep which is better than being up with my thoughts" keem replies.

"That's good what about the nightmares?" She asks.

"They're less frequent" he says.

"Do you feel like sharing what they're about?" She questions trying to not hit a sensitive topic. We've been going to this therapist for awhile but for some reason keem won't talk about his nightmares that seem to haunt him even when he's awake.

"No" he simply says.

"Is there a reason why this whole time you've been here you've refused to talk about your nightmares or any of the demons chasing you? This process won't work if you don't open up Hakeem. I won't judge you or tell anyone this is a private session" she promises.

"If you have a problem with me being here I could wait outside" I add finally speaking up. I try to stay quiet during these sessions because I want to hear him and his perspective on things so I can learn what triggers him and makes him act certain ways.

"Come on T you know I don't mind you being in here. It's just that I don't know how to explain without sounding weird" he quickly says.

"Nothing you say can sound weird it's your own thoughts and I'm not judging them" she promises.

"Alright, well these nightmares are a combination of things. I have this dream about some stuff I did and an image just flashes in my head and it scares the shit out of me. Then I have this dream about you T. It's about when you gave birth when you left the room you whispered love me right before and every time the doctors come back in the room and tell me you're dead" he says squeezing my hand.

"Hakeem I'm right here though I'm not going anywhere" I assure him.

"Hakeem is there a reason why you feel like Tiana may leave you?" The therapist asks.

"It's just that there's been so many times that I've almost lost her and I'm just scared my actions will come back on her. I won't be able to live with myself if something bad was to happen to you because of me" he confides.

"Well, nobody can tell the future but you can't live in fear because of something someone's previously done to you and if you cherish every moment you have with Tiana you'll never have any regrets if anything was to happen" she says.

"You're right" he comments nodding his head.

"So these other nightmares, do you wanna share what they're about" she pushes.

"No ive done enough sharing for today" keem jokes. I have a feeling about what he's dreaming about and why he won't share it with the therapist.

"Alright Well when's the last time you've had a drink?" She asks.

"I haven't had a drink since last Saturday when we went to a album release party" keem says.

"How much did you drink?" She adds.

"Only a glass of champagne " he tells her.

"That great Hakeem you're really making progress" she says smiling.

"Thank you" keem say grinning.

"Well then that's it for today. I'll see you guys next week" she says closing her notepad and standing up. We both stand up and shake her hand before leaving the office.