living on the edge

the discontinuation of living on the edge

hi my sweethearts, 

it is sad to say the fact that i believe discontinuing this book will be the best thing for it. i haven't uploaded a chapter in almost a year (a year on sunday, christmas, that is) and since then i keep finding myself thinking about this book and my three others on wattpad. i feel so emotionally attached to them because for one, they are secretive. no one knows i write anything on here, so of course they are quite personal to me. and second, a fandom or person you love is something only you understand and that is what i've written about. so these books are something i care very deeply about.

but even though i wish to further continue the storyline in this book, i am finding it impossible. for starters, this is a magcon fanfic. magcon has been dead since early 2014. and it's boutta be 2018 next week. *shook*

since the fandom is dead (alongside most of the boys' careers) and never will come back to life, it is hard to write a story about events lost in the past. although this book only has half a hundred thousand reads, it is my most read story on here, and first published. which is kinda cool. 

i began writing this book when i was thirteen and now i'll be sixteen in just a few weeks. my taste in writing and my ideas about life and everything is very different now, although i have to say, somethings have stayed the same. i've experienced so much in these past 3/4 years and the writing in this story is very cringe worthy and immature in my opinion. i would love to continue writing new stories or even finish my other fanfic (which yes it is with a few people from this exact fandom, but it is more my style and easier to write about). 

i get many comments asking to continue writing this story but it's actually impossible. it wouldn't be good, my heart wouldn't be in it and the plot would be weak. if i do happen to write some new things, it would not be surprising if they contain sex, abuse of illegal substances, violent arguing and/or other explicit themes. that's just what's so easy to write about for me, for some reason. who knows, maybe im low-key screwed in the head from past experiences that i don't even remember (lmfao.) 

this makes me feel like i am letting go of magcon forever and i currently have a very sad vibe playlist playing in the background. i will forever love our 9 og boys and i am thankful to them for making me enjoy life a little more at times and shaping me as i grow into the person i am going to become. 

so thank you all for playing a big role in my life as a teenager and im sorry to discontinue this book (even though i don't know if anyone even has this book in their libraries anymore or even has this app anymore) 

love you !!! <3