FALLEN (NOW PUBLISHED ON AMAZON)

15.

Moving in London has been the quickest adaptation I have ever done. I have spent the entire week with Ash and the lads. They really have changed my mind from all things Marcel and it's exactly what I needed. It has been difficult to have him out of my mind... and I also want to spend as much time with them before they go on tour and Sophie and I are left alone. They are really fun people to be around. I have been kicking their arses on PlayStation and they get so mad every time, it's very fun.

"These guys are... I don't even know how to call you. No, seriously." Mike points Ash and I and looks at Soph and Lucas sitting next to him and Caleb, backstage at the Roundhouse where they are performing tonight as the first act of some solo artist.  I didn't get his name.

"You are just jealous." Ash smirks and circles my waist with his arm, pulling me closer to him, under the playful and slightly lustful mood in the air in the band's dressing room.

"I swear, these two are playing on the PS4, laughing, shouting at the other, to be going at it like fucking beast the next second." Mike concludes and I roll my eyes playfully, which Ash reacts proudly and pulls me closer again.

"When was it? It's not important anyway, but earlier this week, I came back from somewhere and I was sure Ash was watching porn, so I wanted to joke and join him. It wasn't porn. Thank God I didn't open the door to your bedroom."

"If you would have, you wouldn't have been here to tell the tale." Ash threatens with the largest grin.

I am almost sad to admit it, but I have been fooling around with Ash mainly to change my mind. I don't know what Marcel did to me, but I couldn't stop thinking about him. It's like he put me under his spell and, for once, I can't seem to get out of it. No news, not a thing since he dropped me off at Sophie's. I feel very ashamed to have used Ash like this, but we are just being casual, right? We are just fooling around... I really should stop this and take some time to myself to really think who I am away from all the men that were and are in my life. I want to be my own person.

We stop talking all together when we're surprised by a technician opens the door to tell the band to get ready. We all get up and exit the room with excitement. I am feeling so nervous for them, but they have this in the bag. They will have loads of fun like they always do. I know, I always have fun with them. It's easy. I don't have to worry about mood swings or the next roadblock. They take everything as a joke. They are a big breath of fresh air in my life and it is exactly what I need at the moment.

Ash's arm doesn't leave my waist as we make our way backstage. He takes his drumsticks from his back pocket and rolls them between his fingers. We stop behind the rest of the band and look at the stage. The boys wait patiently for the cue to go on the stage.

"Have fun up there." I wish Ash before I lean to kiss his lips quickly.

"I will." He smiles at me and kisses me one last time before he follows the boys to their instruments to set them right and then go on stage.

"Are you here with the SOS?" A ginger brother comes to Sophie and I.  I nod in response.

"We are. Have you seen them perform before? They are really good." I tell him as his hair really makes me at ease with him instantly.

"I did and I know they are, that's why they are opening my show." He smiles brightly at me, chuckling a bit and I roll my eyes to my own dumbness. He reaches out to me with a hand and I take it with a smile to shake it firmly. "I'm Eddy."

"I'm enchanted to meet you, Eddy. I'm Grace." I present myself as Sophie is too drawn to the show to notice the man that has just joined us.

"Well, it's great to meet you too. You have a strong handshake, I know someone who'll like that." I frown to his weird comment, but don't mind it more than that.