Illegible Kisses

Chapter Eight

Let me get this straight. I don't have morals , at all. I know I fuck girls younger than me with loads of years and I don't even give any care. You didn't like 'fuck' ? I will not say 'making love'. What is that shit ? Make love ? There is nothing called love. It's just not here. Not around me.

Joy , oh Joy I need you. I want you as much as I wanted any other girl and more. Why you ? Why ? Maybe different , maybe the sadness I see in your eyes the moment I catch the gaze in them ? I don't know but I want you. 

Sunday shiny day was up. If I were a happy person , I would say ' I feel it would be a great day. ' but I wouldn't. Anyway , I decided to run a bit , I hadn't done any exercise for a long time and the weather was so good it motivated me. With some good music blasting from my headphones , I began to run. 

I wanted to clear my mind because it didn't seem to be clear at all those days. And my thoughts were all around her. I didn't mean to talk to her like this , I just was .... I felt like I was losing. I never lose and will never. Not in front someone who's as stupid as that Matthew. I didn't know him but I didn't like him at all. I shouldn't but I really do.

I began to see what happened yesterday , as a flashback. I saw how her eyes were very angry and hurted the moment I talked to her that way. I didn't mean to. I just wanted to see her as quickly as possible and she acted like I was a normal person to her. I'm her .... teacher and she should respect my appearance  , not to flirt and act shy in front of guys.

I wasn't concentrating that I pumped into someone.

"I'm sorry I ...." No , no way my luck.

"It's okay Mr. Simmons." Her again. I couldn't believe the amount of chances my luck gave me with her.

"We need to talk." She stared at me with a confused look. She was trying to catch her breathe as she seemed to be running too. "Can we go and have a drink there ?" I pointed at Costa café near the place we were standing. She kept looking at me , searching for a reason she should come with me. 

"Okay." She said softly and we both began to move towards the place. We sat on a table and she kept moving uncomfortably. She had to , I was still her teacher. 

"What would you like to drink ?" A waitress around the beginning of twenty came to take our orders. 

"I'll have a regular coffee , you ?" 

"I'll take white mocca frappuccino please." She said and the girl went to prepare our orders. She picked her phone and turned off the songs she was playing. I spotted it was Hook by Blues Traveler.

"I thought you would listen to Justin Bieber kind of stuff. " She looked at me with a small smile.

"I prefer classics." She had said before putting the phone aside. "So ? What do you wanna talk about ?" She said looking at me. She needs to stop looking hot like that , especially that her body was sweaty and shiny , her shorts with her sweatshirt. Fuck man.

"Um okay. First , about ditching you the last time , I didn't mean to. We had a meeting with Anderson at school after you all returned home. I slept like a dead man after." I stopped when the waiteress came with our drinks and went away. "Seems like I'm one of the supervisors in the trip." She looked at me with a smile. A fake one. "Are you coming ?"

"Yeah. One of my new friends at school told me he loves going there and it's really fun so I will."  I nodded and damn I knew it's Mattshit.

"Oh , okay. And second , about yesterday ..."

"Mr. Simmons you were really rude. You didn't have the right to talk to me like this you know. " She said and then picked her drink and took a sip , avoiding looking at me.