Illegible Kisses

Chapter Fifteen

i'm sorry i can't come. grandad came and i have to stay so i'm sorry again

I read the words the moment I reached the coffee shop. I really wanted to see her even though I had seen her this morning , but still.

I found Sánchez sitting on our usual table and his coffee in front of him with newspaper tied into two in a hand and a pencil in his left hand. I think he was playing crossing words.

I grabbed a seat and sat before him. He didn't take his eyes away. He was so into it. I didn't know if I should cut him or not but I just sat there until he talked first. I kept watching him and how he was thinking , how his pencil was moving with the music playing , how his frameless glasses were laying low at the end of his nose.

"Hmmm , how was your trip ?" He said without looking at me. 

"Gee you finally found out I'm here ?" I said and I was expecting a giggle but no , nothing. I would blame the game but I didn't think so. He had neither talked not commented. What's with you dude ?

"It was fine. More than fine actually." I continued , trying to get a Good conversation with him , as always. He placed everything on the table and took off his reading glasses.

"You look happy , what happened between you both ?" Yeah , that's why.

"Why ? I am always happy , aren't I ?" 

"Who are you lying to ? You are the grumpiest person I've ever seen." He replied and I thought about it. Yeah he's right.

"Yeah , we swam and then kissed. She stayed with me the entire night. Ah what a night !" I said and he shook his head and stood from his place. I thought he would give me a lecture but he didn't. He walked towards the counter. He didn't look at me. I followed him and waited , waited for any single insult but nothing. 

"What is wrong with you Sánchez ?" I asked and I wished I hadn't. He glared at me with his wide big dark brown eyes and opened his mouth with some Portuguese words. I think he was cursing.

"Você estúpida merda. Eu juro que eu te odeio. Desejo Deus leva você, morreria por um acidente de carro." 

"Translate please." I said coldly and he hit his hand over the ceramic gray counter.

"Don't care about what I said. I told you don't do that to her. Not that girl." 

"So you have to tell me why I should Not do that to her." I asked and he looked and gave a big sigh. There was such a huge battle inside his brain. He wanted to tell me to stop me but he remembered her voice. I could see that , I could see ever struggle he was passing by this moment.

"I can't tell you." Here we go again.

"So I won't stop. She wants me as any other girl. Maybe she looks like an angel but I can see a slut inside her. They are all the same , hungry for a person who makes them feel like the only girl. A guy who will give them what they need , a unstoppable plessure." I said and he shook his head in disbelieve.

"She is not like Megan , okay ? Not because she hurted you , doesn't mean the others will do the same. She didn't just hurt you , she distroyed you , she took your heart out from her." He used his pointer and began to hit my left chest. "You are not a human anymore. Any other animal , even a donkey would be more civilized and smart than you." He said and went straight towards the back kitchen.

No , she's like the other. She's more an animal than I am. He doesn't have the right to talk to me in that way. I wished I could follow him and punch him until he lose conscious but I sat still. I did that because of her words. I need to know what she has told him.

And I will.