Illegible Kisses

Chapter Three

I hadn't seen her since that day. She must had been busy at home or school or work , I don't know I just needed to see her innocence. I even didn't see her at school. It's been three days. I know they weren't a lot but I just wanted to see her. 

I had gone to my favorite Brazilian coffee shop before going to work. The smell of this small place makes me feel pure every time. 

"Johnney. How are you son?" Sánchez , the owner of the place came to say hi. He's such a fun guy to be around. Maybe the best one to talk to. He gave me a small hug and I was pleased to return it back. 

"I'm pretty good. Need a coffee to stay awake." I said and went to the counter and sat on one of those tall chairs.

"So , how is everything so far?" He asked while making this delicious drink. 

"I want to sleep." I said and put my head on the counter. I didn't want to talk about anything espeically he knows everything about me. I somehow trusted him so fast.

Maybe because his warm smile or his big stomach making him look like Santa Claus. I don't know but I just did.

He came with my drink and I took it with pleasure. Its smell made me go weak. 

"So you don't want to talk?" He looked , um smirked actually at me and I nodded. 

"Oh meu filho , you seriously need a lady in your life." He said and I looked at him with disgust.

"Sánchez , I think we've talked about that before. I will never. I won't end up being like my parents and won't have another slut to love. Finally decision." I said with a glare and he finally understood me. I knew he wouldn't be sad from my reaction so I just concentrated at my drink.

"Okay , whatever you say. I'll go to another customer." I nodded and looked in front of me until he comes again.

"Olá beautiful. How can I help you ?" His flirty tone appeared and I laughed silently while shaking my head. He's such a great dude.

"Hello. Um can I have a cup of coffee with milk please ?" The soft voice of hers rang inside my ears. She's here.

I looked to my right to find her standing with one earphone in her ear , her light brown long hair was cascading over her light denim jacket. The old guy was right , she was beautiful. Oh man I want her so bad. 

I stood from my place and went towards her. She looked at me with a surprised expression allover her small face. 

"Miss Bolter. How are you?" I said and she smiled a bit.

"I'm really good. How about you Mister?" She said while blushing again. 

"I'm better now." I said without thinking about my words. "I haven't seen you since your first day. Is everything okay with you?" I asked.

"Oh nothing , I was looking for a job and my homeworks , helping mum. Yeah so I didn't have time to come out in break time or going to the cafeteria to eat." She said. Oh that little girl. Maybe she would need some company.

It's just too early.

"You need work senhorita? You can work here. My son won't anymore because he's going to the university so , would you like to work here?"

No , he didn't. Now this is the only place I can be as free as I can. I won't around her. Either I or her will feel awkward. 

It is a good way to check on her if I need to but ... that old shit.

"I would love that but my school and .... "

"Don't worry it will be like your home. Ask Johnney." He said with a small smile towards me. I was about to kill him. 

She took her drink and looked before Sánchez.

"Um .... Wh-When can I begin?" She asked.

"I would say now but you have school. So you can begin tomorrow at five till nine. Good for you?" He said while cleaning the counter.

"Oh yes , yes a million times yes. Thank you so much sir ... um ... " She said , trying to remember the name she didn't hear.

"It's Sánchez Miss Bolter." I said and glared at the old shoe. I'll keep insulting him for what he has done. I won't forgive him or I would. I kind of end up do.

"Thank you Sánchez  you're the best." She looked at her watch and took out her wallet to pay but him being a gentle refused. 

When it comes to him and ladies , he's the best. 

"I think I need to go. Thank you again for the job. Um see you later Mr. Simmons." She said quickly and went out of the shop. 

"WHY HAVE YOU DONE THAT? Don't you know that this is the only place I feel free to say whatever I want? I don't want any student here." I said very angrily. 

"She seems like a nice girl and also seems to need the job. And hey , if you didn't want anyone to know you stay here , why did you approach to her and say hi ?"

Yeah he got it right this time. I stood there in my spot trying to figure out a word or two to explain but nothing. 

"I just wish you won't do to her the same you did for the others."

                    ***

Me , as always , in my office checking my e-mail if there's something important , trying my best to forget about what the old man had said. I was waiting for the bell to ring so I could return back home and have a rest.

And it finally did.

I took my keys and went out of the box I had to stay at the entire day time. I started to walk towards the door until I saw her. She wasn't alone. A guy was with her leaning towards her , flirting and she was laughing and totally not being the shy girl I saw. No not going to happen. I saw her first. 

I was somehow wanting to grab her and take her to my place now. But now , patience was the best idea in my brain.

I began to walk again towards the door but dammit he was getting closer to her and her facial expression changed. I didn't know if she wanted that or not but I had to go before hitting him and making him lose an eye. 

 "Mr. Simmons , Mr. Simmons." Her voice was following me. I could hear it but I didn't stop. I was so angry today I don't know why. Maybe from Sánchez's words about my past , maybe the image of her with someone else not me. I just didn't stop. 

"Mr. Simmons please wait."

My footsteps were faster now. Until she stopped in front of me. Her face was too red , trying to catch her breath. 

"Miss Bolter we can talk later , can't we?" I replied so coldly she was so taken. 

"I'm - I'm so sorry. I just ... never mind. Sorry again." 

Her voice was so shaky I felt guilty in a matter of seconds. She went to her bicycle and began to paddle. 

Should I stop her? Should I apologize? I don't think so. Feelings shouldn't come between us , even if it's from my side if I want her.