Girls Astray. [Complete]

Amy: The girl who felt shame

"Oh, Aimes," his eyes well up as he reaches his arms out to me and then pulls me in.

Pressing my cheek into his warm broad chest I can't help but smile a little between the tears. The heady smell of forests and washing powder hits me like poison- it pulls me further in. His huge arms squeeze me further in and I've never felt so small and safe before. Like a tiny woodland creature finding its home.

"What happened?" he whispers as he gently loosens his grip.

I pull myself away, but I don't take my eyes away from him. I need the support right now, even if it's from...

"Tom- he just- I can't-" I stutter, my chin trembles and I can feel the bile clawing its way back up my throat.

Alex's expression hardens. All the softness in his face has disappeared and I've never seen him look this angry before. His jaw clenches visibly and between gritted teeth he asks,

"What did he do to you?"

"No- nothing," I manage to spit out as I wipe my eyes, "I just can't stand him."

My shoulders droops and I stare at my converses. Dotted with old and new mud, the once white shoes are now a dirty grey. Scooping down I re-tie the frayed laces, as I try to still my beating heart. All I can think of is him. His soft touch, his huge arms, his soulful gaze.

"Amy," he whispers softly again now and I look up nervously.

He reaches down and grabs my hand to pull me up and back into his warm, safe chest.

"I can't stand the thought of him near you," he whispers into my hair, so I can feel his breath on my ear. It's like an electric current has shot through me- filling me up from head to toe. My body is on edge, begging me to do it, begging me to give in...

Petrified but exhilarated, I glance up from behind my stringy brown hair. He gently tucks a strand of hair behind my hair and looks at me like I've never been looked at before. I feel naked under his gaze, like he's really seeing me, really looking at me. A light could be shining from his eyes, it's as if he really l-

And then, just like that, his lips touch mine. So softly, so carefully and I can't help but kissing him back.

Nothing has ever felt this right.

I pull away suddenly, the fireworks are still exploding in my head, but tears are streaming down my face.

I turn away from him, my shoulders now shuddering, how could I do this to my best friend? After what she's been through. After what he did!

"Alex- this is wrong-" I manage to choke. But it takes every bit of my will power not to turn around and kiss every tiny inch of his face.

Those huge powerful arms wrap themselves around me and squeeze me into his body. He leans down and kisses my neck, the electricity must be visible as it sets my nerves on fire.

"How can this be wrong?" he whispers playfully.

Closing my eyes I smile, I'll just live in this moment a tiny bit more...

The phone buzzes and we break apart in an instant.

"Hello?" I answer frantically.

"Amy? It's Zoe. Have you found her?"

"What? What do you mean? Have you seen something?"

"No I thought- the post- Amy- you need to read it."

I hang up the phone and chuck it onto the bed.

"Where's your laptop?" I bark at Alex, not meeting his gaze. I'm pretty sure I will never be able to again.

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