Silence is louder than the last words he said. I'm still shocked about his revelation, about who his step father is in reality, nothing compared to the good person he pretended to be.
"I shouldn't have told you that. Look at you now. I feel like you will pass out any second" he said putting the back of his hand on my forehead. "Alison?"
" Why would he do such things like that?"
" I'm asking myself " he breath out loudly.
" What now ?" I shouldn't have ask that much questions because I know that he's lost more than me here.
" I don't know I tried to reach mom but I'm directed to her voice mail. I left a lot of messages but she didn't call back "
I feel that he's trying his best to stay calm in front of me and I can say that he's doing a great job but there's no need for him to hide behind that. I can totally understand if he freak out, his trembling hand when I came inside is now softened. I forget that I still have his hands in mine.
" You th..." I was cutted by his phone. The screen reveal that it's his mom. He looked at me.
" It's her " he said
I nodded when he slide the green light to pick up the call. I don't know what to do, maybe he need privacy to talk with her because all I hear him saying is 'uhm hum' 'yeah' 'okay'. Then I decide to get out of the car but when I extended my hand to open the car door he shake his head from left to right and squeeze then backed my left hand at him
"No" he said. I'm not sure if he's talking to me or to his mom then it's confirmed that it was to me when he said " I'm with Alison," he mark a pause maybe to listen to his mother then continue " Mom, she knows about it I don't know who else to talk with after... after you left, I can't reach for Sophia or even Jamie cause they all busy and they're three thousand miles away from here". "Okay"
He get his phone away and make it on speaker
"No no no " I said
"It's fine" he said. And I hear his mom
" Alison? Alison my dear I'm sorry to put you in this mess I didn't mean to" she excused
" It's okay. I... I don't know what to say after what Josh told me "
Nobody's talking and she breaks the silence " Josh " she interpel " I left something, an envelope exactly, behind my bathroom cabinet an.. "
"Your room is always locked. I can't enter there, he will beat me up for that. And now that I know with who he ride with I can't take the choice of a bullet in my head "
"He don't know that you heard what they were talking about." She snap at him " Just hear me out and don't interrupt me this time" she scold him.
" Okay "
" The double of our room keys is in your room, he don't know that too" he looked at me in surprise of what he heard " stuck under your nightstand" he whispered a 'how?' to me. How for his sake I should know that?
"After that, you have to searc.. sckakrrr on th... scakrrr... shhh"
"Mom ?" Josh interpel "mom I can't hear you. I think we have problem with the line"
"... do it J... sckrrr kshhch... please" she said.
"Can you repeat what you said, I can barely hear you." He hurried to say " mom? Mom can you hear me ?"
No sounds come from her
"Mom?"
Bip bip bip bip
"Fine!" He tapped the car wheel " now how I would know the thing to search in their room ?"
"Josh I'll help you" I convincingly said then realise "didn't she said envelope? "
"No no no. It's too risky for you, you stay out of this" he refused shaking his head ignoring what I said after.
"I was already in when you decided to show up at my house" I seriously replied back
" O-okay but how?" He question me.
"I don't know maybe I can follow him when you gonna sneak in their room and keep you in touch of his movements" I suggest.
"We need car for that and you don't even have car" he said
"I'll borrow Lucy's"
"Okay but... wait you know how to drive right ?"
What?
" You kidding me ?" I immediately cross my hand.
"No I'm asking cause I've never saw you driving before" he defends his self.
"I know how to drive. I won race when I was in England" I told him.
"You have ?" He was surprised by what I said.
"No" I laugh at his facial expression " but I will one day". He laugh too " I just want your smile back. I don't like your scared or preoccupied face."
"Thank you Ali" he simply says.
"No problem. That's what friends made for right?"
"Yeah"
"So now what you gotta do ?" I ask him.
"No choice but coming back home" he tired fully says.
"Okay. Just keep me in touch of everything okay."
"I will, just hope he wouldn't be so grumpy when I'll come back home" he put his hand in his hair brushing them at the back then shuffle it.
Don't wanna lie but he looks sexy like that with his white shirt and grey pants.
"What ?" He asks. I didn't realize that I was staring at him.
"Sorry" I excuse myself. "I was just wonder..."
I dont know what happen in his head but he leans on me and press his lips on mine. I backed a little surprised by what he did and didn't move but after realising that maybe I wanted it too I kissed him back.
I can't describe how it was but I'm perfectly sure that he was desperate and he was searching for recomfort, he was searching for recomfort in me. I'm not sure how it will end, if he will regret it after or not but right now I'm doing things that I'm not supposed to do.
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Behind The Reason
Romansa"No! Please! Don't hurt me. I'll do whatever you want me to do but just don't kill me" I plea. He start to inject something in my veins and all I could see is blur. The room spin and I heard a mocking laugh, he come at me after throwing the sering i...
