It's been three years since everything that's happened and since K. and I broke up. I was depressed for a while after everything happened. Once I got up from it and dusted off my shoes; I came back to my Tamartians and released a new album a few weeks ago called BlueBird Of Happiness. It will be my last album, and the album means a lot to me. I just feel like I wrote the songs at a very low point in my life, and I feel like it proved how hard I've worked despite of what I've been through in the past three years.
Tonight is the 30th-year Anniversary of The Soul Train Awards, and I'm gonna be performing my second single off of my BlueBird of Happiness album, called Blind. That song is very close to me because it tells how I felt at one point. The words really tells my story. Toni is also being honored with the Legend Award this year. I'm really proud of her.
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I haven't talked to K. within these past three years except for when I ran into her at this year's BET Awards. I was preforming my first single off of my new album called My Man. Not only did my new album sell great; it also ended up number one. So, even though I've been through a lot before this; I'm still moving forward into the future.
"Ms. Braxton, they're ready for you." One of the stage workers told me when they peeked into my room.
"Okay. I'll be out in just a sec." I told him before he closed the dressing room door. I'm a little nervous because I haven't really made a public appearance in a while since the world found out about me and K's break up. It's really been a hard time for me, and I'm just happy that my Tamartian friends understood that.
I made sure I was ready before leaving out of my dressing room. I said a silent prayer as I made my way to the stage. I got into position on stage as I can hear Erykah Badu make my introduction.
"Give it up for part of the Braxton family legacy; My sister and friend, Tamar Braxton." She said causing everyone to clap. I made that my motivation to sing my heart out. I made sure to wear my heart on my sleeve and sing like nobody's watching. I made sure to let the audience feel what I'm feeling.
(This is the only good one on YouTube)
All of a sudden, my microphone went out. I started to panic because I thought that there was some technical difficulties until the audience started to clap and something showed up on the big screen. I turned around as a video started to play, and I could hear the sound of K's voice sound throughout the whole place.
"Three years ago, this woman became the love of my life." She said as it showed various of pictures and videos of us together. I was trying to hold in my tears, but they betrayed me.
"I judged her before I really got to know her. She gave me a chance to get to know the real Tamar, and not the Tamar I made her out to be. She not only saved me from a horrible relationship; she saved me from myself. She showed me what real love is supposed to feel like. She taught me the true meaning of self-confidence, laughter, and family. She saw something in me that I didn't see in myself at the time. For that, I will always love her. She didn't buy my heart; she took her time and earned it. So, with her blessing, I want to do the same." She said before the video ended. I was stuck. I really didn't know what to do. I would love to give K. another chance but she's not here.
All of a sudden, I hear her beautiful voice singing a song I haven't heard before. It must've been new. In that moment, I knew I couldn't stop the water works even if I tried.
The whole time she was singing, we never broke eye contact. I knew right then that I made a mistake when I broke up with her that day. I still really do love K. I'm still very much in love with her, and I'm done pretending that I'm over this woman when I'm not.
I couldn't believe that she was in front of me at this moment. This moment proved that my heart still belonged to her. I forgave her a long time ago, and I'm gonna make sure she knows that.
"Tamar, I'm so sorry for everything that happened between us. That day that you broke up with me shattered my heart. It was so painful for me to walk out of that door. I knew that I broke your heart when I left you laying in that hospital bed while you were fighting for your life. I want to spend the rest of my life making it up to you. I still love you, and I'm still very much in love with you. And, if you give me that chance, I swear I will do everything in my power to make it up to you." She said while she was crying.
We never lost eye contact. We almost forgot that we were on stage, live at the Soul Train Awards. It was almost like it was just us two in this moment. What was going on around us didn't exist.
Seeing K. get down on one knee brought me out of my thoughts.
"Tamar Estine Braxton, will you accept being my other half and soulmate? Will you marry me?" She asked looking into my eyes.
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K. Michelle's POV
Everyone waited in anticipation for Tamar's answer. I was a nervous wreck, afraid of rejection. I knew that I didn't want to give up on us. I'm in love with the woman that's in front of me, and I wanted her to know that.
Tamar was crying her eyes out as she was trying to get her words and thoughts together. She finally got herself together and nodded her head up and down.
"Yes?" I asked. I knew she was saying yes. I just wanted to hear her voice say it.
"Yes, I'll marry you!" She yelled out, crying. I stood up and put the ring on her finger as we kissed. The crowd was cheering louder and louder as we continued to kiss.
