Nightmares (A Shizaya Fanfic)

Hell?

Pain. The worst head pain I've ever felt. Shizuo was out getting some food, and I was stuck here wallowing in my excruciating pain. It literally felt like my skull was ripping apart. I buried my face into the couch cushions. The light was making everything worse. I heard the jingle of keys outside my apartment door. Finally.

"Hey Iza-" Shizuo stopped mid-sentence at the sight of my body curled into a ball on the couch. "What's wrong?" I just groaned and continued to lay face-down in pain. I could hear Shizuo set the grocery bags down to the side, and approach me. He picked me up in his arms.

I opened my eyes to try and get some read of his expression, but the light amplified my headache, making me whimper. He held me close to his body. I could feel him start to walk to an unknown destination. He layed me down on what felt like my bed. I could hear him putting the shades down, turning off the lights, and covering any light that would get in my way.

"You can open your eyes. It's pitch black in here," I could tell Shizuo was smiling by the way his words came out. I hesatantly began to open my eyes. The room really was dark. I stared at him, a look of gratitude on my face. "Do you want some pain pills?"

I nodded. I don't think I'll be able to handle this headache any more if it gets worse. My head started to pound and so did my heart. I started to freak out. What was wrong with me? I got up out of my bed and ventured outside my room, ignoring how much the headache intensified with the sudden light. I couldn't breathe. My chest was tight and constricting my lungs. I was dizzy wobbling, and struggling to see anything.

Where was Shizuo? He said he was just getting pills. My keys were gone. Did he leave? My door was cracked, so despite my dizziness, I went outside my apartment looking for my blonde haired lover. I shakily walked down the stairs, but fumbled and fell on the thrid to last stair. I looked up from my spot on the floor to see Shizuo pinned to a wall. I strained my vision to see who was holding him there. It was none other than Shiki.

A chill ran down my spine. Yes. I did work for Shiki, but that didn't mean I wasn't afraid of him. Everytime he was frustrated or upset, he would take it out on me by forcing sex onto me. I got up from my position on the floor and shakily stood.

"Well well. If it isn't the mouse. Where have you been? I'm very very upset with you," Shiki had let go of Shizuo and was now walking toward me. I stayed silent, afraid of saying anything that might set him off, "What? Cat got your tongue?" Shiki point at Shizuo. He knew. Of course he knew. He must've had spies everywhere looking for me. I've been MIA for almost 2 weeks now.

Shizuo got inbetween me and Shiki and made a wall between us. "Don't fucking touch him," Shiki laughed coldly.

"You don't own him, I do. Now step to the side before I make you," I touched Shizuo's shoulder gently, as if to tell him to listen. I didn't want Shiki to hurt him. Shizuo moved off to the side, but he wasn't far. He was a shoulder's length apart from me, giving Shiki space to speak to me. "Where have you been?"

I looked down, averting my eyes. "I haven't been feeling well. I don't have the capacity to be an asshole right now," Shiki drew his face closer to mine letting his hot breath hit my lips.

"You're coming home with me tonight. You been gone 2 weeks. We have some business to take care of," He whispered loud enough for Shizuo to hear. Shizuo was seething. I had to stand up to him, and I had to do it now.

"N-No. I'm staying with Shizuo," I blurted out. Before Shiki could do anything, I had fallen to the floor. The headache was ripping my skull apart. I could barely see. Shizuo got down on the lobby floor and pulled me protectively into his arms. Shiki scoffed.

"Fine. Stay with the monster. I'm going to suspend your work for 2 months," With that Shiki left. Shizuo squeezed me and buried his face in my hair.

"What's with him? What's your relationship with him?" Shizuo questioned me. Was he jealous? With the headache ripping through my head, I couldn't tell. I lifted myself up and kissed Shizuo's lips. He bagan to kiss back, and soon we were in a passionate embrace. I broke away from the kiss.

"I'll tell you later. I need my pain pills," I whimpered. Shizuo face palmed.

"Fuck! I forgot! I'm so so sorry. He rang the bell, and I wanted to come down and see who it was and I forgot about the pain, I really am sorry. You should-" I covered Shizuo's mouth, and smiled, despite the gut-wrenching pain.

"I forgive you, idiot. Now carry me back upstairs," Shizuo kissed my forehead and picked me up, beginning to venture back upstairs. Soon, I was back in my darkened bedroom, taking pain pills.

"Do you want me to lay with you or anything?" Shizuo asked me. My head hurt so bad, I desperately wanted to be held. I nodded my head.

"Instead of laying with me, can you. . . hold me?" I sheepishly asked. I didn't even like lovey dovey stuff. God, what had Shizuo done to me? I wasn't even Izaya anymore. I was some romantic weirdo. I was almost human. Despite my conflicted emotions, without saying a word, Shizuo crawled into bed next to me, and held me in his arms.

My head was pounding. I buried my face in the crook of his neck. He was warm, and smelled of cigarettes. "How did this even happen, Shizu-chan?" I was so confused. 2 weeks ago, I wanted to kill the man who was holding me so tightly against him. Personally, in the back of my mind, I always wanted something between me and him, but I thought I had given that up long ago. I wanted to know where he stood on this matter.

"You won't believe me if I tell you," He laughed. His laugh, even though it soothed me, worsened my headache, making me groan. "Sorry," He whispered.

"I'll tell you if you tell me," I smiled against his neck, planting a soft kiss on the sensitive flesh, making him involuntarily shiver.

"Well. . ." He quietly cleared his throat. "Back when we were in high school, I kind of started to have a crush on you, because you were the only person who didn't seem to be bothered by my inhuman strength. I admired that about you. After you framed me for those crimes, I have to admit, I had some resentment towards you, but I couldn't stay mad at you. So it kind of turned into a thing where, if I couldn't have you, nobody would. So I fought with you all these years, acting like I hated your guts, when in reality, I desprately want to hold you like I am now," He turned a bright shade of red, and looked away, "Your turn,"

I pressed my face against his neck harder, and I wrapped my arms around him. I wouldn't have believed him if he wasn't holding me right now. "Well, something similar actually," I whispered. "In highschool the sight of you made my heart beat faster. So I confronted you that day with Shinra. Your strength didn't bother me because I had my whole 'God' complex, so someone who was a 'monster' didn't phase me. I thought I was a god after all. I didn't like love though, nor did I believe in it. So the belief that I was possibly in love, fucked up my mind. So I framed you for those crimes, to hopefully make you hate me, then maybe in my mind, I'd be able to hate you too. Now look at me. I've surrendered to love. Your love,"

Shizuo layed me down next to him, and he pulled me into his arms, and covered us with my blankets. "Then can we cuddle?" Shizuo timidly asked. I nodded, smiling. My headche had started to dull the slightest. Shizuo pecked my cheek. "I love you,"

I blushed and buried my face back into the crook of his neck muttering back those 4 special dreadful words.

"I love you too."