The next morning I woke up to Cheryl's voice telling Louis it was time for school. I had texted her the night before because I knew I wouldn't be able to bring Louis to school with all of this shit happening with Marlon and I. Shortly after I heard her leave with him. I went down stairs to see the blanket folded underneath the pillow I had tossed down the stairs for Marlon. He was sitting beside them, drinking coffee, reading a newspaper clearly not phased that I had just come down stairs.
"You're right," he said refusing to look up from the paper "I miss Angelica. But you're more wrong than you are right, Sandy. I love and care for you too much to leave you and Louis for someone that means so much less to me than you do. Yes, I miss Angelica. But you have to understand that I still love you, and want to be with you."
I stepped off the bottom step of the stairs and walked over to the couch, sitting not too close to him but certainly not far away. As I said what I was about to say, I didn't wanna distance myself. I wanted to make sure he heard me as clear as possible.
I looked him in his lying brown eyes. "It doesn't work that way. You don't get to choose who you love more, this isn't a competition and it isn't kindergarten either. There are some obvious feelings left for Angelica and by all means, Marlon, don't let me stand in the way of them," I pushed my hair back "go back to her. Leave. Pack your stuff and GO." I got up from my seat and went into the bathroom to take a shower.
As I stood in the steaming water I couldn't help but think about how a few short days ago I had accepted my love for him. I had realized it and accepted it, and now I wanted him to leave. And I didn't wanna see him again.
When I got out of the shower he wasn't in the living room anymore. I heard him upstairs, probably packing his things. I went up there to get changed - changed in front of him, to show him just what it was that he would be missing. I sat on the edge of the bed in my bra & underwear just looking at him.
My eyes moved in every direction he went until finally he was finished. I stood up and handed him a tie he almost forgot before saying "goodbye"
He kissed me on the forehead and left the bed room.
That was the last kiss we would ever share, and I felt my eyes tear up. I sat down again, this time no one to watch, no one to look at.
I put clothes on and went downstairs. There was still the faint smell of his cologne in the living room and I opened a few windows to get it out of there.
I just didn't want to miss him. I wouldn't let myself, not this time, not when I had a 4 year old to be strong for. There was nothing he could've done to make me trust him again, and so even if I did fight for him, it wasn't like anything would've stayed the same.
I called Gesine.
:"hello?"
I broke down at the sound of her voice. I had broken the rule I had just made to myself. I wasnt going to let myself cry, I wasn't gonna let myself miss him. But I did. I did at the sound of my sisters voice because I wanted her to be here with me, I didn't want to do this alone. I wiped the tears off of my face and fixed my posture, clearing my throat
: "hey. Um.." I cleared my throat again.. "I uh, I ended it with Marlon. He's gone, Gesine." I said shrugging, although I knew she couldn't see me.
It was quiet for a minute.
: "I'm so sorry Sandra. You deserve the best, and maybe yanno.. Maybe he wasn't the best. I love you, okay? And you can't sit around feeling sorry for yourself okay, you can't. Be strong for Louis - hold it together. You know mom would say the same thing."
She didn't know what to say for a moment.
: "Just please, Sandy.. Don't cry. Don't be sad. Just wait. Wait until someone better comes along because they will. I love you."
: "Ich liebe dich" I said sniffling and careful not to cry again. That was "I love you" in German.
: "okay."
She said. I could hear the smile appear on her face by the way she was talking.
: "bye," she said afterwards.
And I hung up.
I was going to be okay. Louis was going to be okay. Even if Marlon was "the best for me" and I wouldn't get another chance, Louis and I would still be okay.
And that was... Okay.
A/N: Hey readers! Sorry this chapter wasn't long, I mostly just wanted the short yet sad experience of Sandy & Marlons' break up to be fit into one chapter. Also, Marlon Wayans is not by any means a bad guy, haha. It's just the way my story goes. I hope I didn't bore anyone with this chapter! Xo 😘
