Too Far. (swedish)

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Innan detta kapitel börjar så ska jag bara berätta att detta kapitel kommer utspela sig i Canada och från Shawn's perspektiv, det kommer hända lite då och då. Jag ska även informera om att en gammal låt från Shawn kommer att vara med i detta kapitlet som om han skriver den nu och inte då när han släppte den. Aa ni fattar hahaha

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I was thinking about what Tindra said. How Cassi is cutting herself and crying herself to sleep. I wanted to call her right here, right now but I decided to do it later. I wen't down to the kitchen to see if Ali was around. I just saw my mum and dad.

"Mum do you know where Ali is?" I asked

"She's in the shower" she said while she was washing the dishes

"Do you know how long she's been in there?" I asked again without patience

"Like ten minutes, is there something I should know?" She answered a bit worried

"No I just need to talk to Ali" I replied with a smile

"Okay, I'll tell her that you wan't to talk when she's out" she answered and she smiled back

"Thanks mum" I said and went up to my room.

Ten minutes later someone knocked on my door. It was Ali.

"Mum said you wanted to talk"

"Yeah"

"What's up"

"I just got a phone call like twenty minutes ago from Cassi's bestfriend, she called while Cassi was asleep"

"Okey??"

"She told me since we left Portugal Cassi has been crying herself to sleep and she's been cutting herself and I feel like it was my fault."

"Shawn..."

"I know it's stupid for me to think that and yes I know I shouldn't blame myself but I can't help it."

"Shawn you're not stupid, I would blame myself too if I was in your shoes"

"Her friend said that it would make Caassi worse if I blamed myself in front of her."

"Yes I think she's right about that. She's hurting when she's not with you and it would hurt her more if she got you to feel bad too if you get what I mean"

"Yeah I do thanks Ali, I think I'm gonna call her now"

"Yes do that am gonna go blow dry my hair"

"Hahah okey"

Ali went to our bathroom and I picked up my phone to call Cassi on FaceTime. It took a like 15 seconds for her to answer. Her eyes were red and swollen. She was crying. I just said babe with compassion and then I saw it. The blood that was running down her arms. She noticed me seeing the blood and she hang up on me. I tried to call her again and again and again but she clicked all my calls. I packed my bags and booked the first plane ticket I could find. It leaves in 1 hour so I need to leave immediately. I just said to mum and dad that I needed to go back to Portugal. They seemed worried and I told them that I'll be back in a couple of days. In the cab I got a phone call from Andrew.

A: "Shawn you're parents called me, you can't leave now you need to work on your album, you got a few weeks of semester, the important thing now is the work you lost when you were in Portugal last time"

S: "The important thing is that my girlfriend is okay"

A: "Go home Shawn, Her friend was with her right? Call her friend and let her take care of Cassi"