Too Far. (swedish)

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Det här kommer vara ett sådant kapitel som det kommer vara Shawns perspektiv det mesta av kapitlet och mycket kommer vara på engelska. Kommentera om ni vill ha ett kapitel översatt på svenska.

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Shawn's perspective

My album is finally out and now I need to go to some interviews and stuff to promote the album. Somedays it is fun to do that but today I just wanna lay in bed and sleep. But that doesn't work here. I got in my car to drive in to the city to do all the planned things.

Many of the questions today was about Cassi and her miscarriage. I just said that we're fine and don't wanna talk about it for now. But now I'm done for the day and I wanna go home, take a bath and sleep. 

I get in my car and drove home. When I got home I heard Cassi calling for me. I went in to the TV-room. When I was away she got some snacks and candy with cola and root beer.  

"Hi honey" she said and smiled 

"Babe, what's this?" I said and smiled back. 

"Movie night" she said while she walked up to me and kissed me. 

We walked to the couch and sat down. The movie she picked was "Midnight Sun". I love that she chose that one because I really wanna see it. 

After like 30 minutes in to the movie I heard a phone receiving a text message and I saw Cassi picking up her phone. Three seconds later I saw Cassi's face change from happy to sad. 

"Babe who is it?" I said a bit worried 

"No one" she said and gave me a fake smile while putting her phone away

"But you look kinda down?" I said a bit suspicious 

"No I'm fine" she said and gave one more fake smile 

"No Cassi you're not and I'm fucking tired of you not telling me about stuff and keeping things from me"

"Shawn, calm down"

"No I won't because I see on your face that your not happy and I hate that you won't tell me what's up"

"Shawn I'm fine"

"Stop lying, ok?!"

"I can't take this right now"

"Fine! Leave!" 

I saw Cassi walking upstairs and I'm not gonna follow her. We need to calm down separate. After like 15 minutes I walked up to her. I feel like I'm calm enough to talk sense. 

"Hi babe, I'm so sorry I got so angry" I said and hugged her from above 

"It's okay Shawn" she said and smiled 

"So can you please tell me what's up so I can help you" I said with smile 

She looked kinda down again when I said that. Maybe I reminded her about the text she got.

"Shawn I'm fine" she said with a fake smile 

"What's that?!" I said and pointed at her arms 

"Nothing" she said while looking down on the floor

"You cut yourself again?!" I said with a loud voice 

"No" she said while looking down the floor and keeping her arms behind her back 

"I can see them!! They're fresh" I shouted 

"Fine okay I cut myself again" She said a bit irritated 

"Why are you lying to me all the time?!" I shouted at her

"Not all the time" she said and she went over to the bed to sit there instead 

"Shouldn't we be honest with each other?!"  I said and I felt a lump in my stomach 

"I really can't handle this right now Shawn" she said with tears starting to fill up the eyes 

"You know what??! I can't handle this too! If you're going to keep lying to me then we shouldn't be together" I shouted at her with an angry voice 

"If that's what you want" she said with tears in her eyes 

"No I don't but it seems like it's what you want so" I said and walked out of the room

I walked downstairs and I saw my mom in the kitchen 

"Honey what's going on between you two?" she said a bit worried 

"I don't know mom" I said a bit doubtful

"Hey you know what? Fights don't hold on for long. You two will make up pretty soon" she said with a assure smile 

"I don't know mom, she lies to me and she doesn't tell me what's going on with her. It's like I doesn't know her anymore" I said a bit irritated 

"Let her take her time and she'll be ready to talk to you" she said and gave me a smile 

"Yeah you're probably right" I said while I was looking down the floor 

"I know I am, you wanna know why?" she said a bit teasing 

"Why?" I said with a smile and knowing the answer

"Because moms always right" she said and laughed and I laughed too 

Three seconds later I heard a door slamed hard and I saw Cassi running downstairs with a bag. I ran after her out of the house and I saw a taxi waiting. 

"CASSI WHERE ARE YOU GOING?!" I shouted at her

"HOME" she shouted back 

I  got to her before she got in the cab and I grabbed her arm

"You are  home" I said to her while looking deep into her eyes 

"No it doesn't seem like it anymore" she said and snatched her arm away from me and she got in the car. 

I opened the door to the car and begged her to stay but she just closed the door and locked it. I saw her saying something to the driver and three secs later I saw the cab drive away from me 

Cassi's perspective

Jag kan inte hantera detta just nu. Jag måste få komma iväg en stund. Iväg från allt drama. Visst det finns en ganska stor chans att jag möter på Anton och blir misshandlad. Men då är inte Shawn där och blir skadad också. Han har ju släppt sitt album nu och måste vara iväg för att promota det. Jag älskar Shawn men om det finns en risk att vårt förhållande glider isär så är jag hellre hemma för att låta det lagas på avstånd. Han är ändå min prins. Den som gör mina dagar till de bästa. Men det behöver bara stärkas lite.