Players

13

"Expect the bullshit but never accept it"
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Shane is someone who I always want in my life.

Yes maybe I'm being selfish.

But he's one of the only people I have left.

And I'm not just gonna let him go so he can be manipulated by Alana.

But am I doing this the right way?

Will we be better off as friends?

I could be screwing up our whole friendship.

Doesn't he love Alana?

I mean he sure seemed in love with her.

Who knows how long they've been dating in secret like this.

I've been told it's been months.

But what confuses me even more is...

Why now did he decide to confess?

Was it just an excuse to get me out of fighting?

I had so many questions and no answers.

I looked out the window towards his house.

No one was outside the porch was vacant.

I was about to walk over there.

When suddenly the front door swung open and out walked Shane with Alana.

My heart squeezed my lungs tightened.

But I couldn't seem to look away.

She smiled and laughed at something he said.

He looked at her like she was the only girl in the world.

He did love Alana.

I couldn't interfere with that.

I couldn't ruin his happiness.

So I watched as she left.

I mustered up any dignity I had left and I walked over to Shane's.

I knocked on the door.

Shane opened it and gave me a smile.

"Hey what's up?" He asked

"I need to talk to you about something quick." I replied.

"Okay?" He said kind of confused.

"About what happened the other night I think we both know it was just a kind of in the moment thing." I started

"Ok..." he said wanting to hear more.

"We both said some things that weren't suppose to be said and you have Alana so I think we're better off as just friends" I finished.

"If that's what you want?" He questioned looking unsure.

I want something more.

But this is for the best.

"Yes" I replied.

He nodded and gave me a smile I waved and walked off.

That was that and nothing more was said.

He's dealt with enough.

He needs to be happy.

This was the right thing.

But why did it feel so wrong?

With that one choice my life changed.

Things around Shane were different.

I had expected them to be different awkward even.

But he seemed perfectly fine.

He and Alana couldn't be any closer.

And she left me alone for the most part.

But I felt different.

I felt so tired all of the time.

I started to notice how much prettier the other girls were than me.

How much skinner they were.

And that's when I really hit rock bottom.

I became distant toward Shane.

Of course I still had my bitchy comments to say right to Jasper.

And the fire in me to destroy him for what he did.

But I couldn't even look at Shane anymore.

I tried to play it off.

Especially in school.

Shane didn't even seem to take notice that I had become distant.

And that's what hurt the most.

So I bottled it all up.

I held it all in.

Me Hannah and Justin worked in a trio now.

Shane just wasn't around anymore.

I began focusing only on my school work and making Jasper's life a living hell.

So I began making the scheme of my life to finally get back at Jasper.

And this he was going to never forget.

The plan was simple humiliate Jasper in front of everyone at the next football game.

Expose him for who he truly is and also expose his beloved girlfriend as well.

The plan was throughly thought through with a months worth of video evidence.

Of Jasper at his worst moments Alissa too.

I had been saving them for a rainy day.

Tomorrow would be the day I'd finally get back at Jasper and Alissa.

And I couldn't wait.