Judy

Chapter 15

Cal's POV

The nightmares are back and this time they seem incurable. I was only eleven it was normal to have nightmares I remember my first one the one that began everything.

Drip,drip,drip.

"Mommy!where are you?"

The more I think back the more it hurt me. My body felt numb I was alone in my room . It never acurred to me that they could be back but when I started realising it ,it was too late. I read on the internet on how to manipulate my mind all I needed to do was remember they were just dreams. At first it worked the psychologist told me I was getting better but I had to keep on coming to her until I'm stable.

When I turned seventeen they stopped yet again but came back as flashbacks. I was always loosing track of time most of the time I wasn't realising what I was doing.

The moment my brother Jack came into my room telling me how Jade didn't have feelings for me. The one thing that kept me from the nightmares the one who gave me something worth dreaming about. I just felt the world around me collapsing memories of my childhood started consuming my mind slowly breaking everything I had worked for.

Go play with your brother mom had told me. He has no friends she said.
I did as I was told and went to the only friend I had Thomas. My mom had seen him once in the street and told him to play with me. He did as told but a year later he left."Your too weird" he had told me " I'm only nice to you cause of your mom.

You will never find friends was all my mind kept repeating to me. I had my little brother he would become my friend and so he did until he met a new guy I had to make friend sooner or later so that's what I did.

I looked around my block to see who was my first victim. Get a girl I thought. Make sure she is hot and you will have all the guys wanting to be your friend for scoring the one. I saw the schools most popular girl in school looking at me so I went to her. She looked confused at first but the way she was blushing ment she liked what she saw. The plan had worked after getting her number every guy wanted to be my friend. But only cause I could score them chicks

I snapped out of my thoughts where did I go wrong. Why couldn't I just get that one friend. Why did they all in some sort of way brake me. Was I being emotionally bullied and not even realising it? Did I have a low self-esteem? Or was I just ment to be alone in this world like my mind had told me over and over. Jade. Why did I think of her. The first day I saw her.

She was sitting alone she looked lost like she didn't belong here, just like me. She left to go who knows where and that when my idea came to me. I left my notebook for her to find she would just bring it to the lost and found at the office. Later the day the text I got from Jack that he saw a girl with so decided to take it. School was almost out and I was already on my way.

She was looking down and bumped me. That's when I had a plan to ask her out but not then and there. It was the day at the lakehouse that I realised the mistake i had made. She was as old as my brother that made her a sister to me. It felt weird being with her it was like I was just using her because the more I thought about her the less they nightmares came. In some way she helped me like she was the cure I'd been looking for. The only thing that could heal me.

I didn't realise I was driving next thing everything around me started to blur. I woke up and saw the cure trying not to wake me.

"Judy?"

I said her name more a question than a statement. She smiled at me as if she was shocked she would never see me. I couldn't help but laugh which caused more pain than I thought it would. She took a chair and sat next to me taking my hand in her little ones.

"I was so worrie-"

I didn't let her finish her sentence.

" I have to tell you something I've never told anyone before"

I didn't know why I said that I usually think before talking but with her it was different. I loved her but not in that way. I wanted her for myself but she was never mine. All could do was the right thing which was to tell her everything. Starting with the childhood problems until now. I know it must be a lot but something in me tells me she could help me better than any professional could. Her brown eyes where so inviting they sparkeld most of the time even after hearing from Nate her mother had passed. She was so full of life even though she looked exhausted. Must be my fault. She wasn't skinny or fat mostly fit. If I were to compare her shape to a frut it would be a pear just to die for. She was attractive and didn't even notice it. For someone who looked shy she was a good in fact a great conversationalist. She was what most girls wanted to be and some even hated. The fact that she didn't notice that was a big surprise to me.

I looked at her lips the ones which took my first kiss. She was standing on two bricks when that happened. At first I thought to myself when did she get time climb them but then left it to be. I took a deep breath in which also seemed to hurt seems like my ribs are fractured. She squeezed my hand encouraging me to tell her. So I did and for once I felt I weight lift from my shoulder. She was truly my cure.

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Who could have thought that all Cal needed was a friend..I hope you enjoyed this chapter

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