If We Go Down Then We Go Down Together (Talenny)

Penny - Grief

I wipe my eyes on my sleeves before taking a deep breath and walking up to the two security guards at the gate again.

'Is everything sorted?' one of them asked. 'Did you find the MAD agent?' the other one questioned. I nod before answering. 'Yes, the President and White House are safe... and as for the MAD agents he's- he's d...dead.' I stammer a bit at the end, containing tears of grief.

They raise their eyebrows, and open the gate for me to get into the gadgetmobile. As soon as the cars doors were shut and I was in the sky, I burst out into tears.

I can't believe I killed him... I'm a monster! You're such an idiot Penny. You killed your fucking crush for God's sake! These thoughts raced through my head the entire drive back to HQ, the last one triggering many outbursts of tears.

~1 Hour Later~

I take another deep breath before knocking on Chief Quimby's office door. 'Enter.' he commands from inside. I push open the heavy door and sit down in front of his desk. 'Mission report?' he asks and I nod.

'Mission success, the President and White house are safe.' I repeat, as I'd told the security guards. 'Damage control?' he questions. 'A blown up silo of grain and a tiny bit of landfire.' I reply, still shaken up. 'And what about Talon?' he asks as a final question. 'Dead.' I say, not meeting his gaze, but I could tell he was astonished and slightly angry. 'But we don't kill-' he started before changing his demeanor on seeing my upset. 'What happened.' he asks softly.

I take a shaky breath in and out before replying. 'There was this silo... I pushed him into it and he flicked a lighter and the grain-' I say starting to cry a little. 'It's okay.' he tells me, silencing me. 'I understand.' he finishes, before dismissing me from the office.

I trudge slowly back to my dorm, barely acknowledging the agents who wave and smile at me, wallowing in my own self pity.

And on top of all this I have school in three months. Back to Southend's School for Agents, with Pasha and Kayla and Mal and Will. Will's a Claw yet he's not evil, which is good. Then I guess it also means Talon had a choice and decided to be evil. I think glumly, sitting down on my bed and messaging Kayla.