deep, dark and dangerous

I'm In Love With You

        DEEP DARK AND DANGEROUS

    CHAPTER 17

    RYAN P.O.V

    “When are we going to go back to normal?” He asked as we were laid across his couch with xbox controllers in our hands. He was laying behind me and I was in front of him. He had a head set on but he put it to the side as he asked me.

    “When I know I can give you everything I have.” I didn’t trust him fully. I wanted to I really did. He paused the game and he rolled on top of me as he hovered over me.

    “I want it to be normal again.” He said. I closed my eyes. I could feel the tears building in my eyes. “Open your eyes.” He said. I shook my head no. “Look at me Ryan.” He said. I felt his hand on my face, his thumb caressing my cheek. I pried my eyes open even though I didn’t want to. “It’s okay to feel sad. Its okay to cry.” He said as he wiped a tear that fell from my eye.

    “Its just that, I wanted to be with you so badly and you just left so easily.” I said. I wrapped my arms around him. He laid down on top of me. His mom came into the room.

    “People are going to be here soon.” She said. They had decided to have a cookout today to just see family and they all needed to move on and just act normal. “What did you do to her?” She asked as she came over and looked at us.

    “I’m okay.” I said. I still had my arms wrapped around him. I refused to let him go.  She left the room as the doorbell rang. “Will you please stay with me?” I asked.

    “I won’t leave you ever again.” He said. I knew eventually he would have to leave me but for right now, I would be able to do it. Another boy who had brown hair walked into the room. Jared sat up pulling me with him.

    “Hey man.” Jared said as the did some weird handshake thing. “This is Ryan.” He said. “Ryan this is Cory.” He said. I gave a little wave and said hello. “She’s shy.” Jared said. I giggled before I shut the Xbox off and walked into the kitchen where Jared’s mom was making some food and a man and a woman were standing next to the island.

    “Guys, this is Ryan, Jared’s girlfriend. Ry this is Taylor and Scott.” Again I gave a little wave and said hello.

    “Do you need any help?” I asked.

    “Yeah if you could get the salad stuff out of the fridge.” Most people were scared of the huge fridge. I was at first but Jared always made me do it on my own so I got used to it. I turned around to find Jared in my face.

    “What are you doing?” I asked as I tried to go around him but he stepped in my way. “What?” I asked as he wrapped his arms around me. His mom took the things out of my hands knowing she would never get them now that he was here. He dragged me into the other room where his lips found my neck. “What are you doing?” I asked.

    “Kissing you.” He answered.

    “Well stop.” I said trying my hardest not to moan.

    “Why?” He asked.

    “You’re turning me on.” I whispered.  

    “Lets go fuck then.” He said.

    “Maybe later” I said and kissed him before I walked into the backyard where everyone else was. Jared came out and turned the grill on. I wrapped my arm around his waist. “Do you know how this even works?” I asked.

    “No idea.” He laughed. His uncle I assume came over and took over for him. “I don’t know how to work it.” He said.

    “I know. You’ll need to figure it out though. Your dad is gone now. The prick.” He mumbled the last part. Jared looked at me and I gave him a small smile to let him know it was okay.