deep, dark and dangerous

When she stands tall

DEEP DARK AND DANGEROUS

 

CHAPTER 22

 

RYAN P.O.V

 

It seemed as if school just kept dragging on. I was barely holding myself together. It was last period and I was itching to leave to go to the hospital. I wanted to spend as much time with her as I could before we took her off the machines. We decided that if she wasn’t awake within the next two weeks that we would take her off. She always told me that if something happened that she needed machines to survive to take her off and let her go. It would be easier if she passed away quietly and peaceful.

“Ryan. Are you alright?” Mr. Bilton asked me. I nodded my head before listening to what he was talking about which I soon realized I had no idea because I wasn’t listening. The bell rang and he called me to his desk. “Why are you itching to get out of here? What’s going on?” I sighed knowing that Jared was waiting for me.

“My mom is living off of machines right now. We are taking her off them next week. They don’t think she will survive. I need to spend these last few days with her before I can’t spend any time with her at all.” I answered him. He nodded his head in understanding.

“Don’t worry about tonight’s homework. Go be with your mom.” He said. I quickly walked out of the room and into Jared’s arms.

“Today was so long.” I felt like crying. I wasn’t sure what we were going to see when we got to the hospital. She may already be gone, you are never sure how long you have on earth and that’s a scary thing.

“I know. I felt like shooting myself in the face.” He said. “Can we stop for some food first? I didn’t eat lunch.” I nodded my head.

“Like Mcdonalds or something?” I asked and he nodded his head just as I had done. “Can I have a medium M and M mcflurry?” I asked.

“Of course.” He answered as he ordered what he wanted along with my ice cream and two fries. He knew I wanted those without even reading my mind. “So my mom wanted me to ask you and don’t take it weird okay?” He asked me. I put my spoon down and looked at him.

“What?” I asked.

“Did you get your period yet?” He asked me and I burst out laughing.

“Yeah. It ended a few days ago.” I said to him. “You wore a condom didn’t you?” I asked him panicked that he didn’t. I wasn’t on birth control yet.

“Yes. I wanted to ask you if you wanted to go on birth control.”

“Yeah. But I need my mom there to get it.” I said to him. I could get it but I’m pretty sure someone had to be there.

“My mom said she is willing to pay for it.” He said to me.

“So she’s going to take me to get birth control?” He didn’t answer me but asked his own question instead.

“Can you explain to me how it works.” I looked at him confused.

“You don’t know how getting pregnant works?” He laughed at me.

“No your period.” I blushed red. There were some questions out in the world that just shouldn’t be asked and this was one of them.

“Well you bleed every month.” I said. That was how the period worked.

“But when would you get pregnant?” He asked. I guess he actually really cared.

“Like fourteen days before and after your period. There is like four days out of the month when you can get pregnant. At least that what my mom told me.” Obviously it had to have been easier than that because so many teen girls were getting pregnant. Jared obviously didn’t want me to be one of them.