The hunger games continued

Chapter 18- saying goodbye

I wait in a small room with a single chair, I pace back and forth, wondering what the hell I'm going to do, what if I have to kill my mom? no, I'm not going to do that, because the only reason I volunteered was to protect her in that god damn arena, she needs me, Sonny needs her, dad needs her, they don't need me like they need her, if my intentions weren't to protect her, than what were my intentions? no, my intentions were to protect her, and nothing else, I look up as Sonny and dad are escorted through the door by a large peacekeeper, "Forest" says Sonny, hugging me, "hey, hey, it's fine, hey, come on" I say, hugging her back, she starts to cry and I bend down, "calm down, I'll be fine, you'll see, I'm good with a bow aren't I?" she nods, "yeah? so what have we got to worry about?"

"You dying" I look at her, maybe I was wrong, maybe she does need me? "but will I die and just leave you here? no, so we have nothing to worry about" she nods and I smile at her and stand up, I look at dad, "hey daddy"

"Hey sweetie" he answers, I smile, "your mom wanted me to give you this" he says opening his hand to reveal moms gold mockingjay pin, "dad I-"

"Yes you can" he replies, knowing what I'm about to say, I smile, "thank you" I whisper, hugging him, the door opens suddenly and the large burly peacekeeper walks in, "time to go" he says, grabbing dad and Sonny by the arm, she screams and I reassure her that everything will be fine and that I'll be home soon, then the door slams shut. I stare at it for ages, then I turn back around and face the window, after that a few others come in, Finn comes in all teary and wishing it was him instead and I pay no attention, a blubbery Effie, saying what a shame it is, but the last person made the most impact before I left, Rory walks in as I pace back and firth across the room, "you ok?" he asks, "just dandy!" I snap back, immediately feeling terrible, "I'm sorry" I whisper looking at my black shoes, "no, I'm sorry, it was a stupid question, I'm sorry because I haven't done anything to help you, I'm sorry because-" I cut him off with a kiss, light, but effective, he shuts up right away, "I had to do that at least once" I say, pulling away, "me too" he answers softly, I flash him a weak smile, "time to go" says the peacekeeper gruffly, "no!" shouts Rory, suddenly hysterical, "please we need more time!" he struggles to no effect, "stop!" I scream, seeing that the peacekeeper is hurting him, I grab at his large hands with act as catapults, sending me flying until I hit the wall with a thud, I start to see strange swirly patterns then feel extremely dizzy, I hear the door slam, and a strange click after it, I stand up and run to the door, I try the handle, but as I expected, it was locked, I bang on the door and cry out until someone comes in, oh great, it's the grumpy peacekeeper, he grabs me by the arm and leads me down the hall, I take one last look at my home district before we climb into the car that is going to take us all the way to the train station, I look around, taking in the dusty little village that is my home, and will be until I die, the strange woman taps me on the shoulder and tells us to get into the car, as I take my seat in the car, I swallow hard, I look out the window until I can no longer see my home, then I listen to the babbling woman next to me.