Start Over

5 // Waste The Night.

"What are you doing here?" "I go to school here." "That's not the point. What do you want?!" By now he was within arms reach of me. "Just one more night with you." His hand trailed down my face and behind my neck. "Just leave me alone Alec.."
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"Do you wanna come over after school?" "I uh- I asked Ashton to come over."
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I tapped my pen against the table watching to clock slowly change from seconds to minutes. I was so nervous to talk to Ashton. Ive never been this nervous. It was just different this time.

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Ashton-

"Niya wait up!" I called after her running to her. "Uh hey. You okay?" I nodded at her question. "Uh do you wanna lift home? I mean I'm coming over anyways.." She just stood there, a puzzled look on her face. "I mean only if you still want me to." "Oh shut up. Lets go." She laughed as we walked back to my car.

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Pulling up to her drive way I seen a tear drop fall on her hand, as she quickly wiped it away. "Hey.. You okay?" She turned and slightly smiled at me. "Uh yeah."

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Niya-
Sitting in my own house, I felt uncomfortable and distant. I didn't know what I would say, but I was gonna wing it.

"I shouldn't have done it." He looked at me with concern in his eyes. "Done what..?" I could tell he was hesitant to ask. His eyes trailed my face looking for answers. With tears in my eyes, I turned and looked at the ground. "Take him back.. I shouldn't have taken Alec back.." He grabbed my face making me look at him. "Where's all of this coming from Niya?" "My heart. If I never would've taken him back, I could've had you. The person I'm really in love with." A tear fell down my cheek as they formed in his. "An-and all because of him, I ended up hurting you in the process. I thought it was him I loved. But it wasn't. It never was. It's been you all along." "Niya.. Don't do this to yourself." I couldnt even look at him knowing how badly I hurt him. He tried everything to get me to look at him. "Do what?" "Tare yourself down.. You didn't hurt me." "Yes I did. I know I did. You stopped talking to me a month. You were always crying. You never played your drums anymore. You hardly came around school. I know I hurt you Ashton."

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Talking to him now, was different than ever before. I was too scared to let my feelings come out again. Alec did so much damage to me I forgot how to treat others right. "Hey.. Stop crying." He wiped away another tear with his thumb. We sat there staring into each others eyes. His hand was still resting on the right side of my face. I felt his face inching closer to mine. It was hard to resist kissing him. Finally connecting our lips, resting my hand on his face, he sat back pulling me onto him.

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"Just one more bottle please?" Her words were slurring and she reeked of alcohol. "Sky, why did we let this happen?" We sat there laughing about it as we scanned out the parking lot.
"Ashton's so gonna kill you." I turned and looked at her. "Me? Us. He's gonna kill us." "Who's gonna kill you?" We jumped up and turned around. "Uh.. No one." Jaylynn started groaning trying to get up but failing. "Niya. What happened?" He pushed me out of his way gently. "So we may have gotten her a little drunk." "A little?! She's shit faced right now." "Calm down Ash. It was a one night thing."

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"You can't stay mad at me forever." He turned around grabbing me by my waist pulling me closer to him, as I wrapped my arms around his neck. "Who said I was mad at you?" We just stood there, holding onto each other, in silence. It was a comforting silence. "What?" He stood there laughing at me. "I love you. I mean truly, deeply love you." I meant every word of it.
"You're only saying this cause you're drunk."

"You really dont get it." I scoffed as I walked away. "What do you mean?" "I didn't sit there and say this because I'm drunk. I said it because I love you. Every word I said this morning, I meant it all. It was you all along. I wasnt drunk then, and im not drunk now." I walked away and went upstairs to change.

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Ashton -
"Take these and get some rest." I kissed her forehead and walked to the door. "Will you stay with me?" She was hesitant to ask, but confident at the same time. I half smiled and walked to her closet grabbing a pillow and blanket. "What are you doing?" "Sleeping on the floor?"

Niya-
He had a puzzled look on his face as I asked him. "You can sleep up here ya know." "You sure? I mean your parents are home." He pointed to the door with his thumb. "So? They never come up here." He climbed onto my bed. "Goodnight Ash." I laid down on my stomach. He grabbed me and pulled me into him holding onto me. "Goodnight Niya." He whispered into the crook of my neck.

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I woke up to a sleeping Ashton, and an annoying alarm. I got dressed in my grey joggers and maroon crop hoodie with my white ugg boots. "Ashton. Get up." He wasnt budging, so I hit him with my pillow. "Ow. What was that for?" His voice was beautiful in the morning, quiet yet raspy. "Get up. We have school."

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"Good mor- oh well hello Ashton. I didn't realize you'd be over so soon." "Uh it was late when we got home. You were sleeping, I didnt want to bother you so I let him sleep in the guest room." "Okay. Well I'm running late for work. Ill see you when I get home. Love You." My mum picked up her keys and kissed my forehead. "It was late? Guest room?" Ashton laughed at me as we walked in the kitchen. "Okay, what was I supposed to do? Tell my mum I got shit faced, you came to my rescue and slept in my bed? Yeah I think not." I grabbed a water bottle and my keys. "Are ya coming?" "I'm driving." He took my keys and ran out the door.

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"Is Ash okay? He never came home last night." "Uh yeah. He stayed at my place." The bell rang cutting us off. "Ladies get to class." With my keys still in my hand, I saluted him giving him a smug smile. I sat at my desk and drifted away listening to my teacher babble on about nothing.

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The day finally came to an end and all I wanted to do was go home and sleep. "Ash. Do you wanna come over?" "Uh- yeah. Sure." He half smiled. "Are you okay.?" He nodded. Our conversation drifted to nothing.
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"So whats the plan?" He looked over at me as we pulled into my drive way. "I was gonna watch a movie and sleep. You don't have to though. You can go home if you want to." "Movie it is. My parents are usually never home. It gets quite boring."

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Falling asleep next to Ashton, infact in his arms, made my night 10 times better. I really do love this boy with all i have. My shattered heart and broken soul. "I love you Ashton." "I love you too Niya."