I don't know how, but I seemed to have misplaced my phone. Last I saw it was two nights ago, and I remember hearing it's buzz as I fell asleep. I just don't know what happened to it. I tried having family call it so i could follow the sound of the ringtone but it didn't make a sound anywhere in the house.
I have to find it. What if Mary tried to reach me. I looked in every creavice of my house untill I found it in the night stand next to my bed. I feel stupid but I get over it and pull out my pocket battery which I plug my phone into to get a charge. once it got charged enough I turn it on. Imediately I check my text messages and find that I got a message frrom an unkown caller. As I open the text screen my heart stops.
It's a single stentence. "I got a restraining order so don't ever come near me again!" I can just hear her voice say it in my head. I didn't respond but I know it's Eve. She plays the part of victum very well. There is a few tells that spring to mind that people need to realize that it's all lies. For example if I had done what she says I did, why is it she waited a whole week before she broke up with me after the day she says I forced myself on her. I know I have no evidence that backs me up, but how is it she has no proof that supports her claim. I get paranoid from thinking about this shit.
I sudenly just feel like my world is about to crash down on top of me. It's like it's happening all over again. What if Mary hears about this. I can't take the risk of her hearing what happened from someone else. I just have to man up and tell her my side. I'd rather take the risk she won't believe me than lie to her hiding the claims made against me.
I message Mary and we figure out a time to talk. I have to do this in person and face my fear that she will hate me if she knows. If I don't make a foundation of trust for our relationship then it wouldn't even be a real relationship. Moments like these can make or brake a man. I won't let myself fall short of the man I want to become. I have to be a man worth the trust of others.
Nothing worth anything is without its challenges. I know I'm not perfect, but I have to have faith that I can be a force for good. I can't say I'm there yet, but I know the choices I make now can help me get there. If I let the things that fear me stop me then I'll never move even a step forward.
The entire day I just layed in bed thinking, and to be honest stressing over all this drama. I just hope Mary can see past the struggles I faced before I met her...
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Whispers Of The Past
RomancePaul, a young man who has never really felt any peace in his life gets a wake up call. He faces challenge after challenge just to stay afloat. He even starts to feel something he has never felt before, peace of mind. It all starts when his heartbrea...