can you keep a secret ( zayn malik vampire fan fiction )

chapter ( 42) pain

songs

torn by one direction (cover)

last kiss by taylor swift

love will remember by selena gomez

if it's just me  by hunter hayes

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alice pov

I just arrived home I slammed the door open

"alice what happened" mum say with a worried voice

"he cheated on me he fucking cheated on me " I screamed my voice was so loud my body is shaking I barely can stand I was about to break down but I ran upstairs ignoring my mum the slammed my door shut & locked it

I can feel the heat around me I started to through everything thing on tge floor breaking everything into small pieces

screaming loud until I looked at the picture of me & zayn that is next to my bed I stair at it for a moment tears stream down my face I was hurt so much I took the picture & looked at it silently examining his face his smile his eyes , the way I looked at him & he looked at me

then suddenly when I looked at his face I remembered everything happened in the night club I felt heat rushing up in my head I through the picture across the room it hit the wall & shuttered into pieces I couldn't take the pain inside my chest anymore it was unbearable I set on the floor & put my head in my hands I start to cry but with voice a horrible sad dispersed voice then I put my head on my knees & hugged my self trying to stop my body from shaking

"how could you" I say with weak voice

"how could you" I repeat again & again

until my eyes can't take it anymore I close them slowly

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I open my eyes in the morning to see everything around me on the floor broken just like my heart I actually slept on the floor I remember everything from last night every time I remember it I feel like someone put a knife in my heart

my head is hurting me so much everything is spinning around

I stand up slowly walk to the bathroom I needed a shower I turn on the hot water & take off my clothes I step in the shower

the hot water help me to relax but I my head & my heart still hurts so much

I have to clear my thoughts , I'm not sure what should I do when I meet zayn , I think I will just ignore him I can't talk to him look at him touch him or kiss him

my tears start to fall again & I can't stop them , I get out of the shower I took the towel & tied it around me

" I look at the mirror to see the bags under my eyes I wash my face again from my tears it is the first time in my life I can't be strong I can't

I get out of the bathroom I put on a pair of jeans & my hoodie I pull my hair to a pony tail I put on my converse I took my backpack & went down stairs I get in the kitchen see my food on the table with anote
" I have work I didn't want to wake you up early so here is your food , please eat
& I will be home all the weekend :) "

oh yeah today is Friday that means a miserable weekend , after thinking I don't mind I just want my bed

I take alook at the food but I can't eat I'm not hungry so I drink my juice & put the rest of the food in the microwave , I put headphones & music start