can you keep a secret ( zayn malik vampire fan fiction )

chapter(59) Maybe it's last time

A year without rain by selena gomez

Alice pov

I never imagined that my life could be like this if you asked me two years ago do you believe that vampires existed I would have laughed and if you told me that my father is still alive , I would have cried .

I have changed alot since I met zayn, I have grown up , I have never been that brave or strong before , I have never thought that I maybe something special that I'm someone important , but with him it's like I'm the most important person in the world , he is my soul mate , the owner of my heart , he is everything .

Today I'm travelling to america , it's hard I have to say goodbye to everyone I love , the only man I loved in my life and I might not see them again

I left my head of my pillow , on my right zayn lies asleep , oh god how I'm going miss the way I wake up next to him every morning smelling his scent , playing with his messy hair , he opens his eyes slowly

"Good morning angle" he spoke with his sleepy voice

"Good morning babe" I say , his forehead on mine he kiss my lips a soft kiss l can feel his pain in this kiss and it hurts , his hand find mine under the covers he bring them to his lips and kiss them slowly , I move closer to him "you know I can't find words to tell you what I feel now , how much pain I feel in this moment" he say then he moves the hair off my face so we can look at each other eyes "I know zayn I can feel it too but I promise you that I will never give up on us no matter what "

"I love you my angle" he say and kiss my forehead the I get out of the bed walking slowly to the bathroom and shutting the door behind me , taking a quick shower and putting on my clothe , then I blow dry my hair & put on my eyeliner , I hear a knock on the door

So I open it to see zayn fully clothed and looks like he just had a shower

He opens his arms for me I hug him so tight I really don't want to let go , he kiss the top of my head

"Oh my dear alice, I can't put it in words how much I'm going to miss you" he say lifting me off the floor and sitting me on the bed he sit beside me

"I know you are nervous and worried " he spoke "but just look at the ring I gave you , every time you miss me , I promise to do all I can to keep you safe " he say holding both of my hand in his

"I really want to cry zayn " I admit

"Why , darling , why?" He say ask looking in my eyes

"Because I can't imagine myself away from you all this time without you , I feel like I'm burning alive , I want to stay in your arms forever , forget about everyone else why it's so hard for us why?" I say half crying I lie my head on his chest and he wrap his arms around me

"You know alice before you I just had no reason to live , I really hated life , it was hard for me to live , I didn't enjoy life anymore but one day I saw a girl that was brave , nothing scared her or with another sentence I didn't scare her , she was a challenge to me at first but soon enough I realised I have fallen for her hard and then I knew that my life is back and you are my last chance so I will hold on to you no matter what , I believes in you , you are the strongest girl I have ever known , you keep me alive so basically I'm nothing without you , cheer up angle , you are my life and I'm going to keep you safe" he say but all I do is cry harder

"I'm not afraid about myself , I'm afraid about you what if something happens what if you get hurt and I'm away I can't help you , zayn , if I lost you I have nothing , I love you zayn I love you" I cry like never cried before I don't want to go , my head is set on one thing what If zayn got hurt and you can't help him , what if you lose him like diana