can you keep a secret ( zayn malik vampire fan fiction )

chapter ( 58) "nightmare"

ALICE'S POV

Zayn and I went downstairs but we didn't find anyone , noura and niall was gone

So we sit together watching tv

"Alice " zayn spoke while his arm around my shoulders

"Yes" I answered

"I won't come with you to america , you know"  he say with a sad tune , I know he is upset because I have to leave , I'm upset too

"I know , I'm trying not to think about it" I say and put my head on his chest

"You know soon we are going to have to say goodbye. the point is and don't understand me wrong , I'm hopping for the best but expecting the worst , you and I might not see each other again"

"Why would you say that?"

"Because of the war, we might lose , we might win who knows and if we lose the will probably kill me and use you for their evil plans to control the world and just thinking of that terrifies me "

He say and tight his arms around me

"First of all , we have a very good plan and our chances are good second the more you worry the more you get affected with me leaving zayn, you have got to know that I will always be with you no matter what, we are connected , our hearts souls and bodies maybe they can get us far from each other , but believe me they will never tear us apart , there's a part of me inside you they can't take , if I'm in danger you will come and rescue me and if you are in danger I will do the same , baby there is a string connect our hearts togther , no matter how far we are we will always find each other,  you don't have to call me to hear my voice , just put your hand on your heart and you will feel me " I say pointing to his heart with my hand

"I love you alice and if I had to die to keep you safe i will do it without any hesitation"

"don't say that because if you died I will never be safe" I say and hold him with my arms , I'm scared on him too , I have that guilt that eating me inside that every thing is happening is my fault , maybe if I didn't exist life would be alot easier for the people I love , I will miss mum so much and for dad, I don't I just miss the father I used to have not the father I have now , the one I remember as a child was loving life , funny , always smiling , he never left me , always taking care of me holding me singing to me , hugging me and most importantly making me feel loved but the one I have no is so serious , I just feel that he sees life grey now he lost colours , I hardly see him smiling and we hardly talk , he changed and I changed too

"What are you thinking of? " zayn say cutting my thoughts

"Dad" I simply say

"What about him"

"He is not the man I used to know "

"Life can change people"

"I know I just want my father my real father back "

"Maybe you can help him be what he used to be"

"Maybe"

Then i hear door opens , niall and noura get in the living room

"Where have you been? " I ask them

"Just having a walk" noura answers but she looks at me , I don't know how to describe it but not as the same way she used to

"Okay" 

"When is everyone coming back" niall ask

"In an hour or so " zayn answer

There was a moment of awkward silence

"Okay so I will go to my house to check on mum she is home today , call me if they came back before me " I say and stand up