life n' such

a bad day

Yesterday, i sat on the couch for three hours and ate and watched shitty movies on TV. It was disgusting, but i was sad and that's all i wanted to do. I wish I could've thrown it all up after but my parents came home so I just slept for ten hours and tried to pretend I won't have to pretty much not eat for the rest of the week to make up for it. It's not like i'm going to go to lunch anyway, i won't have anywhere to sit. That is a result of the very reason I was sad in the first place. wow! segway! Anyway a couple parts ago I mentioned that there were these two people I thought might hate me. Well, yesterday I found something that confirmed that. It was lovely. It really shouldn't bother me that much because I've known for months I just didn't want to believe it. You see, one of these girls was the only best friend I've ever had and while we were best friends I took it for granted and i shouldn't have. It's such a magical thing and i don't even know if i ever told her that. I wish I had. The other girl, if I'm completely honest, is kind of a bitch. I've known her since kindergarten and she'll do anything to benefit herself. Unfortunately, it usually works out in her favor. I like to think she's the reason the other girl doesn't like me but that's probably not true. I don't think I'm exactly a likable person. I don't know why, i wish I did, but people don't really stick around in my life for very long. I don't know what else to say here other than i really hope those girls don't read this lmao.