life n' such

mood swingz

today was interesting. it started out fine i guess, i worked out a little bit (not enough) and then went for a short run. i spent pretty much the rest of the day at my boyfriend's house (remember the fuckboy ?? yeah that happened) there was a dick in my mouth today lol yikes. it was honestly a really good day idk why my mood did such a u turn. I came home and looked in the mirror and realized how fat and ugly i am so i made myself throw up but i couldn't get enough up so i played with a razor blade a little bit (if ya don't know what i mean ya dont need to) and now i'm bleeding and it doesn't even hurt so i'm gonna have to not let my bf near my hip for a while without explaining to him that i lowkey had a mental breakdown and did some stupid shit because i know he won't be able to handle that and just kinda dump me on the spot but like that's okay i don't want me either. I wanna sleep for a very long time (not die, just sleep ya know) anyyway I'm done over sharing for now cya kiddos