I really want to keep writing this because it genuinely helps me keep my thoughts straight but I don't have any complete thoughts to write about and it's so frustrating. :))))))
I think I'm going to make this part a bunch if random stuff put together that I'll possibly elaborate on later because everything is a jumble right now and I'm spouting bullshit.
In other news I can't tell if i'm being weird and anxious or if people actually hate me. :) Maybe it's both. I really hope it's only one person that hates me because I can live without her but if both people I think might hate me actually do I'll be real sad because then I won't have friends in school and that sucks. Maybe they're just fed up with me, I mean I'm pretty annoying and I'd get fed up with me too. I wish people would be straight up with me though. I understand having a problem with me, I have plenty of problems with me but if you do please just tell me it makes life so much easier and them I can skrrt skrrt out of your life and stop bothering you.
I'm also like hella bored with life at the moment so all I have to focus on is stupid shit so I'm over thinking and over complicating everything. I think that's why my brain is so messed up at the moment. I have no reason to be bored though ???? I have a 4.0 GPA to keep up, I run almost everyday, I'm rehearsing for the school play, playing bass for jazz band, I'm in almost every club, I'm teaching myself sign language, and I have a hilarious and creative Snapchat story to keep up with (jk it's dry af lmao) Point is, there is literally no way I should be bored but I am ??? I sleep through class and even when I'm awake there's no way I'm paying attention and I still have straight A's. My dad is taking sign language classes and I taught myself more in 40 minutes than he learned in two classes. I know, I know I'm complaining about being smart but if I say any of this out loud my friends will yell at me because they hate when I say things like that but I need to say it somewhere so sorry bout it.
I think I'm done being obnoxious for today see ya kids!
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Acakthis started out as just kinda a place to put random thoughts when i was bored or feeling really hipster but now it's sort of an online journal type thing because i guess i just needed someone to talk to please excuse grammar, spelling etc. this is...
