Hands off

The funeral

Father's POV

''Lauren, honey you need to get out of bed.'' I shake her a bit to make sure she is awake. ''But I don't want to.''  She says softly. ''Honey I know you don't want to, we all don't want to, but you need to do this for your mother, alright?'' Her head comes up from underneith the blanket. ''But daddy I don't want to bring her away, I can't live without her, she's my mom'' She says while crying. 

''Oh honey I know, I don't want to live without out her. But you have your brothers and me. They have you and I have all of you. Today is going to be a hard day but after today it will get easier and we'll be happy again. So honey, please come out of bed and get ready or we're going to be late.''

I dry her tears with the back of my hand and she goes to the bathroom to take a shower. The boys are already up and I help them all with their ties.

After twenty minutes Lauren comes down in a black dress. She lookes  exactly like her mom with her beautiful brown curls and her big brown eyes.

We al sit at the dining table for breakfast. I have made some toast but nobody wants to eat. We just sit there in silence.

Marcus, Collin and Jeffrey all look very handsome in their suits and Lauren looks beautiful in her dress. How am I so lucky to get these 4 kids. I am so proud. 

After 30 minutes of mostly silence we get in the car and drive to the church where there is a short ceremony and after that we go to the cementary to bury my beloved wife, Marie. 

The day tears keep coming down all of our faces. The boys stand next to each other and Lauren stands next to me. The coffin goes down in the hole and Lauren begins to cry even harder. 

Jeffrey's POV

I hear Lauren cry, she stands next to dad and he hugs her. I look how to coffin goes further and further into the ground. I look at Collin and Marcus who let tears fall down their faces silent. Suddenly Collin wraps his arm around me a gives me a soft squeeze. I look up at him and he gives me a small smile. Collin and I always have been close to each other. So i'm glad that he's next to me know. 

We stand around the grave. Other family members already left. We just stand there in silent and sometimes a little noise from Lauren's crying.

Suddently dad walks away and Lauren goes to Marcus. They hug each other. 

Marcus POV

Dad walks away and Lauren just left alone. She walks to me and I give her a hug. She wrappes her armes around me. 

I hear a car start and see that dad drives away without us. I look at Collin who also just saw what happened. He raises his shoulders. 

Now we stand by are mothers grave and our dad just went off without saying anything. 

''Where is dad going?'' Lauren asks quitly. ''I don't know hon.'' I say to her. 

After a while we make the decision that it is time for us to leave as well. I call a taxi because everyone is already gone and we went in one car. We waited 15 minutes for the taxi to come. It was already getting dark and cold. I see Lauren shiver. Jeffrey places his suit jacked over her shoulders.

Collin sits in front and Lauren, Jeffrey and I sit in the back. Collin tells the drives where to take us and about twenty minutes later we arrive home. Dad's car isn't in the driveway. I pay the taxidriver and we all go inside the house. 

Lauren runs upstairs and I hear her lock her door. She never does that because in the past it was stuck one time and she couldn't get out. So we got her out of her window because she was freaking out.

Collin and Jeffrey sat down an the couch and turn the television on. I also go upstairs to get out of my suit. We all have are own room. My room has white walls and bed for two. I don't really like to clean it so it's messy.

After I hang my suit in my closet and change in something more casual I go to Lauren's room. I knock on the door and asks if I could come in. But she doesn't say anything. ''Lauren, baby girl can you please open the door.'' 

''NO!''

''Why not? We can just talk or not talk if you want? We can just sit on your bed or we can watch a movie.''

''NO!'' She yells again.

''Hon.'' I try.

'' NO! Go away.''

I walk down the stairs and hear Lauren cry as a stand on the last step.