BLIND DATE. ❪ PJM + JJK ❫

thirty-two

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so ive been thinking

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WAIT N O

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i just REALIZED. like. no thinking, no prolonged thoughts involved, just a realization!!!!

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its like, i wasn't THINKING about u, i just REALIZED that

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i. i am literally just making it worse. i. what the fuck. ill just start

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so i realized that.. i owe you. a lot.

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and its been stressing me out. because i dont like owing people things

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but i guess ill have to live with it because theres, well. a lot

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firstly, i owe you an apology.

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i'm sorry

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thats it. thats all i have. no excuses

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jesus ive known you for barely any time at all and ive already apologized to you twice. thats like. more than my entire friends circle has received collectively

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so, yeah. there it is.

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and i know this wont make a difference now, but about messaging namjoon?

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your choice. always your choice

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i hope that's clear now.

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i was gonna wait for u to reply before i went on but i have SO much to say

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an update: im still very sorry!!!! even more so than before, which was apparently possible!! the more i think about it the more sorry i get!!!!! AND ALL IVE BEEN DOING IS THINKING ABOUT IT SO P LEAS E. REPLY TO ME. BEFORE I EXPLODE WITH ALL THIS FUCKING SORRYNESS

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i understand if you wanna ignore me bc thats what i did to u at the restaurant (lowkey) (ok maybe not lowkey), but u shld know that i really didn't intend to hurt u, its just so much had happened and i was literally abt to cry and u werent supposed to see that but. lol shit

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im sorry for not messaging u sooner, ive just had a lot to get my mind around and ive been trying to figure out what i need to do and

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im not sure. about what i need to do, that is

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anyway, reply when u can (PLEASE), we have a lot to talk about (SO MUCH). hope ure doing ok

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(also, you should probably reply to seokjin hyung. you know how he gets)

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hello again

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you doing ok?

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i mean youre probably busy with something but a reply wouldnt hurt lololol

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anyway, another thing i owe you: making things right. fixing this

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and ive been thinking-- wow, i sure have been doing a lot of that lately, havent i

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anyw i got this one idea, its kinda dumb so i wanted to run it down by you first

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soooo reply soon? no pressure though

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ok talk to u in a bit

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i told seokjin hyung abt my idea and he thinks its neat n all, but i still kinda need ur help??

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so, yeah... really need that reply soon

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im at a loss

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i said i was sorry, like, a gazillion times

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and its been?? a week?? i mean there's an extent to which u can drag this shit on

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can you please at least show me a sign of life?????

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dont make me ask seokjin for ur address bc ill do it

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seokjin doesnt know ur address. of fucking course

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you're being so ridiculous right now, you know that right?

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you havent even opened my messages i swear to god if u have me muted i will get sooooo

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look if youre mad at me then REPLY and we'll talk this through like adults!!!!

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whatever ugh. bye

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this isnt fair

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youre not even giving me a chance

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jimin please im gonna lose my mind

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snuggle muffin?

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since this is v short ill be doin a double update!! keep ur eyes peeled 👀👀