BLIND DATE. ❪ PJM + JJK ❫

twenty-two

GUKIEMONSTER
hey

GUKIEMONSTER
this is later than it should be but like i'm really bad at on-the-spot stuff so

GUKIEMONSTER
yeah

GUKIEMONSTER
i just wanted to say sorry?

GUKIEMONSTER
like

GUKIEMONSTER
like ok i know that i'm really unnecessarily rude to you, i KNOW i am but i just didn't bother to stop? because you never really seemed to get hurt and i just thought

GUKIEMONSTER
god

GUKIEMONSTER
i totally understand if you're mad because you have every reason to be, it's pretty unbelievable that you're the one doing me a favour and not the other way around because i'm not acting like that am i?

GUKIEMONSTER
i'm sorry i've been so unreasonable and harsh and just been a horrible person in general, things just slip out and i take a long time to look back and regret them and that's just how i am, i hate it too believe me

GUKIEMONSTER
but listen, i'm really fucking glad you said those things, okay? you shouldn't regret a word because shit, it's true. it's fucking true and we both know it, i've known it way longer than i should have and i just didn't DO anything about it, it just never registered

GUKIEMONSTER
seokjin hyung once told me that i'm a super single-minded person, like when i dedicate myself to something nothing else really matters? i took it as a compliment at the time but now i get why he was looking at me so fucking seriously when he said it, like jesus christ jimin i didn't even register the fact that you've been a goddamn human being this whole time

GUKIEMONSTER
not only that but like, there's just something about you that makes me feel like i'm free to act however i want to? but i took that in the wrong sense and i took that too far and i'm sorry for that i'm so sorry

GUKIEMONSTER
dont go

GUKIEMONSTER
so as you can probably see im not good with apologies in general but goddammit jimin i'm just really sorry okay?

GUKIEMONSTER
i just, jimin i need your help so much right now i need you and i shouldn't have taken you for granted, just please please don't go

JIMBLES
you

JIMBLES
you make me so unbelievably soft, fuck

GUKIEMONSTER
jimin....

GUKIEMONSTER
your gay is kinda.....showing

JIMBLES
that wasnt gay i was just saying

GUKIEMONSTER
..sounded pretty gay to me

JIMBLES
whatever

JIMBLES
so what's the plan?

GUKIEMONSTER
huh?

JIMBLES
the plan

JIMBLES
when are you going to meet up with jimin??

GUKIEMONSTER
wait