By your side. -- TROYLER / INCOMPLETE

Falling asleep.

--Tyler POV--

 

Wow… Troye’s really; growing up? I don’t know what to call it. He just made me blush and have butterflies in my stomach at the same time. No one’s done that to me in a very long time.

    He just… Times like this are when I really realize why I love him so much, other than him just being him. I’m so happy that he loves me as much as I love him.

    I just feel kind-of; mean? No… not mean; maybe bad though, because he’s loved me so much longer than I’ve loved him back. After I finally started dating him, I asked myself why I hadn’t figured out how perfect he was sooner.

    The way my body perfectly curves into his when we’re cuddling, with my head on his shoulder, kissing his neck ever so often. And how he kisses the top of my hair. I can’t believe I didn’t want that sooner.

    He watched my videos, liking me for such a long time. I just feel bad that I made him wait such a long time… But at least we’re together now! And I’m not planning on giving that up, if you know what I mean.

   

    I opened the door and watched everyone walk in. They smiled the food and their faces instantly lit up. They went over to the dinner table after they said ‘Hi’ and hugged Troye again on the couch. Shaun offered to bring Troye over to the table but I told him I could do it. So he went to the table with the rest of his family, and I went over to Troye and put my arms under his to lift him up, and when he stood up and was slouching over, I leaned up a little bit to peck him on the lips. I whispered to him.

    “Sorry, I kinda left you there a few minutes ago.” I looked into the dining room and everyone was talking to eachother, so I decided to continue the sentence. “I’m in love with you, I’ll always be there for you, and you are perfect; at least to me. Don’t ever forget that. You’re literally the love of my life.” That was the first time I had ever expressed how much I loved him towards him. Holy shit.

    I could tell he was flustered when I leaned away from his ear and looked at his face. I put my hand on his cheek. “Sorry to make you blush so much.” I smiled at him. His face got redder. He looked down at the floor as I led him over and pulled out a chair out for him. He sat down and everyone turned to him.

    “Did Tyler make you blush over there?” Tyde asked snarkily.

Before Troye could say anything, because I was sitting next to him, I rubbed his back and said something for him. “He’s…. flustered. Don’t pick on him because of it.” I smiled and winked at Tyde. “Anyway, just help yourself, really.”

Everyone got up to fill a plate with food. I got Troye and I’s food.

We had a dinner conversation catching up on everything that’s happened to Troye in the past few months, and just bringing up random things to talk about. Like old memories, or what everyone had been up to, or what they had recently been thinking about. Most of the topics conversations ended quickly, but some lasted a long time. Like the ones about Troye and all the drugs. Things like that. I kind-of hated that those were the ones we spoke so much about. Even though I understood Shaun and Laurelle’s concern, it was hard watching Sage and Tyde sit through what we were talking about. I mean… it was their big brother. Not to mention it was Steele’s younger one. I could feel the tension and when Troye and I looked at each other for a second I could see in his eyes how weird he felt. He was just trying to hide it because everyone would ask what was wrong, when it was plainly obvious that everyone was talking about how sick he was when he was sitting right there. I was holding his hand for most of the time we were at the table. Sometimes I would be holding his hand, sometimes I would be rubbing his leg; both were just to comfort him.

    Times like this is when I wish Troye was instantly better so that he could enjoy the time with his family more when they were here. He hadn’t lived with them since about two months after we started dating last year. It was hard for him to say goodbye, but it was also his decision to move in with me all the way in L.A.. I know that usually couples wait longer to move in with each other, but I already had the place and had been living by myself for a long time. Troye was my boyfriend and he had already liked me for a long time before we started dating, and I knew that. He wanted to come be with me sooner, because he had been waiting so long to be close to me all the time.

    The reason I let him was because not only was he my boyfriend, he had also been my best friend for a while. Even if we were sleeping in the same bed, we wouldn’t be having sex (back then) because he still had his v-card. I knew it would take him a little bit to get comfortable enough, no matter how much he liked me. I wasn’t planning on forcing him into it either. I have respect for him, and it’s not like I was in a hurry, I hadn’t had it in a while anyway. It surely wasn’t a rush to get him in bed with me that way.

    Then, one night, we started making-out and getting all hot-and-bothered. I told him that I loved him through heavy breathing, and it just… went from there? Let’s just say that in the morning he started complaining about hurting ‘everywhere.’

   

    It hit eight pm and everyone had already been done eating for about an hour. They decided that they were gonna go back to the hotel to sleep because of jet-lag and the weird time-zone difference. We said our goodbyes, and I could tell Troye was looking forward to seeing them again tomorrow, I was too.

    He was feeling tired, so I put what little was left of the food away and we went into our room. Even though he’s taller than me, I laid down, resting my head on a pillow and he scooted down to have his feet near the end of the bed so he could lay his head down onto my chest. He put his hand up my shirt a little just traced me with his fingers. He leaned up and I leaned down to kiss him quickly. Then he laid his head back down and closed his eyes. He looked so peaceful, lying on me. I gazed down at him, with my eyes closing slowly. Then I rested my hand on his arm and closed my eyes to go to sleep.

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So, yeah. His family will be there for another two days in the story, and then that's when the real drama starts happening. Thanks for reading, as always!! (LET'S GET TO 4K)