By your side. -- TROYLER / INCOMPLETE

Mine Forever?

-- Tyler's POV --

All I could hope is that he keeps what he said a promise.

I don’t want to cry all the liquid in my body out again, watching him lay lifeless in front of me.

    I just want him to get better. I want him to be the Troye I fell in love with. I mean; he’s still the Troye I love and still the person I fell for, but he’s starting to get distant because of what’s going on.

    No matter what happens, though, I will stay by his side.

I’m not leaving him now.

    I don’t want to leave him ever.

Could he be mine forever?

    I don’t know if that’s going to work out, but I hope it does.

I can see my life with him beside me. I can watch my life play out in my head and see him with me. I can see him as the other person my kids call ‘Dad.’

    I can see his smile for a lifetime.

I can feel his embrace until I breathe my last breath.

    So let’s hope he’s mine until I die.

Because that would make me truly happy.

    I went over and opened the door for Louis to come back into the room.

After he sat down in the chair next to Troye I went into the kitchen to grab the many drugs prescribed for Troye.

    There’s so many of them. It’s horrible.

A lot of them you had to eat before taking them. Isoniazid. Rifampin. Ethambutol. Pyrazinamide. The list went on and on. There were at least seven of them. I couldn’t ever forget to have him take them or else the disease might get resistant to the drugs.

    This was going to take a long, long time.

Six to Nine months until he should be cured. I couldn’t stop before then or else he could get sick again. One of the effects of tuberculosis is death, and I’m not going to let that happen because of a stupid mistake.

    When I walked over with Louis sitting by him I set down the meds on the table next to the bed. I looked into his eyes and Louis must’ve felt weird. Troye pulled me down by the sides of my jacket that I hadn’t taken off yet in the house, and kissed me. I reluctantly broke from the kiss after a second. I just looked at him and smoothed his hair back as usual.

    I told Louis that it was okay if he wanted to go while I was opening all the pill bottles and taking a look at all the capsules and tablets. I grabbed a pill organizer for the week.

    Louis left and I immediately went over and leaned down to kiss Troye.

I took a breath in and parted my lips, I felt my warm lips getting colder because of Troye’s cold ones. I held him in an embrace and kissed down his neck.

    “Hold me, baby.” He whispered and sounded like he was going to start crying. He almost choked on the words as he said them.

    I climbed around on the other side of the bed and wrapped my arms around him. I pulled the blanket over myself as well as him and rested my head on his cheek.

    “You have to take the medicine soon. It’s going to be a long time before you’re better.” I whispered and kissed his cheek.

    “I know, Ty.”

“But remember what I said?”

    “Yeah. Everything’s going to be okay.”

“Soooooo do you love me?”

    “Of course I love you.”