By your side. -- TROYLER / INCOMPLETE

New Picture.

This chapter is.... I don't want to spoil anything, as much as I can. I just want to tell you right now, that with the next sentence you are about to read, your heart might drop. This chapter; sadly; I am giving a trigger-warning. Reader's discretion is advised. I hope you make it through this chapter. :/

 

--Troye’s POV--

   

    I wanted to ‘wake up’ more after Tyler left, but I didn’t know how long he would be gone; and I also couldn’t get out of bed without struggling. So I decided to reach over for my laptop and go on tumblr. Per usual.

    I decided to check the Troyler tag, I hadn’t checked it for a few days.

I scrolled past all the text posts, and then finally one caught my eye, after looking at a bunch of gifs.

    ‘HAVE YOU SEEN THE NEW PICTURE?!’

Hm… Tyler and I haven’t taken a picture with each other since I got sick. How could there be a new picture today? Weird.

    I refreshed the page and I scrolled down from the top, nervous of what I might see.

 

And then my heart dropped to my stomach.

    And I got a lump in my throat.

Because the person I cared about more than anyone in the universe was kissing another man. I didn’t know who this man was. I didn’t know if Tyler knew him. All I knew is that I was on the verge of tears, staring at the photo that made my world stop.

    I surpassed the verge of tears until they were pouring down my face, non-stop.

I gulped and wiped the tears from my eyes.

    Then I covered my face with my hands.

And I shrieked.

    Over and over again.

I shrieked until my throat hurt.

    I wailed at the top of my lungs.

I screamed ‘No!’ and ‘Ty!’ incessantly.

    I couldn’t believe it. Had he gone to the grocery store to meet up with this guy? Then there had been someone around to take a picture of it?

    Did-did it happen because Tyler’s gotten sick of me being sick? H-he just wanted someone that was better for him emotionally?

    S-someone that he didn’t have to take care of?

W-was he lying to me the whole time?

    “Why-y w-would h-he do th-that?” I whispered to myself. My voice broke from the crying.

 

That was when I struggled up out of bed.

    That was when I began my walk to the kitchen, where I would find all my medications on the counter.

    I clutched onto every piece of furniture, leaned on every wall until I was there. Standing and staring at an assortment of pill bottles.

    I reached my shaky hand out to grab the isoniazid.

Everything I had promised Tyler was gone. It was in the very, very back of my mind now.

    I couldn’t believe what was going on.

You know how I explained that Ty said that there was nothing I could ever do to make him mad enough to stop loving me or leave me?

    What if he never loved me? So; he wouldn’t really be leaving me if he cheated on me?

"H-how… how about I just make all his p-problems go away?"

 

I took the bottle in my hand and held it in a death-grip.

I made my way to the bathroom and almost fell into the bathtub, slamming the pill bottle down on the side.

I didn’t think to lock the door.

I was making it easier when he got back to find my body.

    I remembered all the warnings about overdosing on this drug; probably just one pill extra and I would get side-effects.

    But one side-effect I was really aiming for?

Death.

    I hope I said enough goodbyes to my family before they left to last the rest of their lifetimes as the last words they heard from me.

    I hope I’ve kissed the lying fool I’m in love with enough times so that he knows how much he’s betrayed me when he sees my lifeless carcass lying in his bathtub.

    And god dammit. I hope he at least loved me at one point.

I just leaned my head back on the tub, grabbing the pill bottle and opening it. I glanced down as I emptied a good 10-15 into my hand.

    Then I leaned back again, letting all of them slowly fall into my mouth.

This was it. This was it.

    I love you, Tyler.

I forcefully swallowed the pills and let them sit. I felt drowsy. But I also felt like throwing up. Then I had my eyes open, but everything went black; without me remembering having closed my eyes.

    I think I got the side effect I wanted.

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Uhm. I can't tell you what happens next. I'm sorry. I love you! Oh. And can we get 25 likes and get to 12 comments on this one? You guys are blowing me out of the water!

P.S. I'm very sorry about what's going on; but I did say there would be drama.

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-- Oli <333