By your side. -- TROYLER / INCOMPLETE

Why did this happen?

        This chapter contains a lot of profanity. This is a very emotional chapter, this is where I said the drama starts. Readers' discretion is advised. Enjoy reading... I guess.

--Troye's POV--

   

    I wonder why he got to me so much. I thinks he’s the only person in this world that can make me feel every emotion only about them.

I laid back and ever so often I would glance over at him, because I had a certain amount of time until I would want to see his face again. The same thing goes if I’m sad. If I’m sad and I’m alone, I’ll probably curl up into a ball and just start sobbing. If I’m sad and Tyler’s with me, I’ll begin to tear up and he’ll immediately embrace me and tell me everything’s gonna be okay. Then he’ll explain to me what will happen and how he can fix whatever is going on, when he doesn’t know that just his presence when I’m sad is fixing the problem by itself. I’m not sure if he’ll ever know the extent of what he means to me. If I start to cry on his shoulder, he’ll pet my hair and kiss my head and whisper into my hair that he loves me and that everything will work out. Then if I hesitate to tell him something he can pull it out of me almost immediately. He’s always told me that there’s nothing that I could do that would make him stop loving me. That I mean the world to him and that I could kill someone and he would help me bury the body. That if I went to prison, he would go with me. That I could literally do anything and the day would never come where he gets so mad that he leaves me or doesn’t love me anymore.

    I wonder if I know how much I mean to him.

It’s not like I could mean that much, I’ve never done anything that would make him feel such strong feelings for me. It’s not like he loved me first. I loved him first. So why is it that he makes me feel like he’s giving me the world every day?

    Is it because I’m sick? I know how nice of a person he is; maybe when I’m not sick anymore he’ll break up with me because I put him through so much and he doesn’t want to be with me anymore. I don’t know what I’d do if that was the case.

    My emotions are really unstable most of the time; and now that I’m sick I’m getting mood swings like crazy. Every emotion is intensified. That’s why I’m scared of the possibilities of what could happen between Tyler and I. I don’t want to end up dying, when this whole thing is over. If you know what I mean by ‘dying.’

   

    When the episode of what we were watching was over, he got up and kissed me on my forehead.

    “It’s been a few weeks since I went to get groceries; we don’t need any more of your medication; but we do need food… so I’m gonna go to the store. Anything you want in specific?”

    He asks me that, every time.

“No, not really. Just whatever you usually get for me.”

    “Okay, well I’ll be back in a few.”

“K babe.”

    “Yup.” He parted his lips and I parted mine, him leaning down to kiss me.

“Mmmmmm.” I moaned into his mouth.

    He removed his lips from mine.

“What the fuck?”

    “What?”

“Shut up.”

    “Lol.”

 

--Tyler's POV--

 

    He’s such an idiot. Buuuuut he’s my idiot.