Stranger {Min Yoongi x Reader FF}

What's Going On?

"I'm only going to invade your life. Waste your time, you're going to waste your youth on caring for me. I'm only a human, there are many others like me out there.. even, better than me. I'm just a weight, weighing you down after all. If you want to break up with me.. then do so." I allowed tears to slip out.

"Y/N, look.. I don't know what you're saying but please just calm down and hear me out." Yoongi tried reassuring me, but it failed. I furiously shook my head, tears came pouring down my face. At this point, I broke down. I was on the floor, a sobbing mess while Yoongi had nothing to say. He never argued with me, he'd only try to comfort me.

"Just get mad already!" I yelled, thrashing around. "Why would I want me to get mad at you?" he asked with the calmest voice he could. "B-Beca-cause I'm.." I tried talking in between my loud sobs. He tried walking over to comfort me, but with every step he took closer to me, I'd scoot away. "Step away from me!" I screamed, pulling my hair and shaking violently.

"Why?" he tried to hold in his tears. "I'm mentally unstable, I can't!" I started crying more. "I don't want to hurt you even more.." my loud sobs, turned into silent cries. "I'm a weight weighing you down, I'm nothing to you. I'm useless.. Nothing.. garbage.. GARBAGE!" I started to shake more than before. My vision started getting blurry then focused again, I couldn't tell if it was from the tears or not. Then a sudden word started swirling in my head..

..Goner..

I don't feel stable anymore.. 

I don't want to hurt him.. but I can't control myself.

Oh it's impossible to get you off my mind
I've understood that you will never be mine, and that's fine... I'm just breaking inside.

(One Day- Tate McRae)

I was a mess by myself. Maybe strangers were just meant to be strangers. If we never met, this wouldn't be happening. I wouldn't be hurting him, he wouldn't hurt me. We'd be safe... right?

A sudden dark figure appeared behind Yoongi. It's her.. my nightmare. She was tilting to the side, while standing directly behind him. She had on a big smile, it wasn't a comforting one either. It was so scary and creepy, it's unsettling. She reached to the front of Yoongi, and dragged her thumb across his neck. She mouthed 'he's a goner.'.

I started to shake my head side to side vigorously. "Step away.. from him." I said carefully. She just shook her head and started snaking her arms around him. "Don't touch him! Hands off!" I screamed. She faded into the air, leaving a confused and worried Yoongi. I started panting and I sweating too much. My vision blurred and my head started getting lighter, I finally fell unconscious. 

I woke up at.. home? I was sure that Yoongi would've taken me to the hospital. I was snapped out of my thoughts when I smelt a familiar, calming scent. I then noticed that Yoongi had been cuddling me, my head snuggled into his chest as his arms were wrapped around my waist. I then heard the sound of the piano playing. I lifted my head to see Yoongi's phone resting on the nightstand, playing a video of him playing the piano. I laid my head back down, taking in Yoongi's scent. I was calm as I watched Yoongi sleep peacefully. His chest rising up and down, the sound of his heartbeat beating, his soft snores. I loved every moment of this, I didn't want it to stop. I wanted to stop time and allow this to continue on. 

I snuggled back into Yoongi and felt my eyes feeling heavy. I eventually fell asleep once again. 

'Moments like these are the ones I want to treasure the most.'

I woke up again to the sound of the shower running. I looked over toward the bathroom door and saw the light on. I just guessed that Yoongi was taking a shower. I would too, after a long day, I would've wanted a break too. I stayed there listening to the sound of water. Not long after, someone turned off the water. I panicked for a bit but then calmed down right after when I smelled the scent of him. I sat up in the bed when the door opened. Yoongi came out wearing a white oversized hoodie with red roses imprinted on the side of the sleeves. He was also wearing some plain grey sweatpants. 

His hair still wet, making it appear longer than it actually was.

"Yoongi I'm sorry for earlier.. I wasn't--" 

"Don't apologize for something you didn't do." he cut me off. I sat there stunned.

"But it was my fault!" I simply said.

"You weren't yourself at the time, therefore it wasn't your fault. You assumed something that would break your heart, causing you to be in a set of emotions." he said back. "B-But--" Yoongi walked over to me placing a kiss on my lips, shutting me up completely. "What was that for?" I asked, feeling the blood rushing up to my face. "I need you to understand something, and you have to listen to me." he said calmly. I just nodded my head, and he sat down on the bed.

"Y/N, earlier you heard me talking on the phone.. correct?" I nodded my head. "You must've woken up at a set of words being said by me. Y/N, I wasn't talking about leaving you. I would never want to either. I'm not pitying you even the slightest, I actually love you with every inch of my heart and soul." he said, holding my hand.

"Then what were you talking about? You were saying something about someone being a weight and leaving them.." he shook his head. "I was talking on the phone with my older brother." guilt started to rise inside me.

"My brother and I never really had a good relationship with my mother. My brother ran away from home not too long after I was a legal adult. Sooner or later, I went away as well. He knew of this, so every once and a while he'd check up on me to see how I'm doing. He asked about our mom, and I didn't want to speak to her because he had plans. I still haven't cut ties with my mom though, so she is a big weight on my shoulders." I started tearing up from the guilt inside me.

"So you never wanted to leave me?" I asked. He shook his head and I felt so.. damn... guilty.