Nothing Without You [Under editing and updating]

Chapter 9: Thinking

Cristan

After she said those words. I felt like I also feel her pain.

"Please naman Cristan! If you can't respect me as a woman, respect me as a human being, Nasasaktan din ako sa mga sinasabi mong hindi totoo! How can you be that insensitive?"

After she said that I remained silent and continue driving. She just lay backwards, close her eyes and sleeps. I really don't know what to say.

I admit. It really stabs me. I shouldn't be feeling this way. I shouldn't be guilty.

But no!

It deserves her. I drive as fast as I can. I parked my car.

Gigisingin ko sana siya pero napatigil ako. Pinagmasdan ko siya habang natutulog.

She has an angelic face, pointed nose, rosy cheeks and kissable lips.

I caress her cheeks. I lean towards her when someone suddenly knocks at the window of my car.

Nanlaki naman ang mata ko when I realize something.

Shit! Did I just want to kiss her?! Nasapo ko nalang ang noo ko.

'Damn' I cursed inside my mind.

Binuksan ko ang bintana at nakitang si Manang Bitang pala.

Siya ang pinakamatagal ng naninilbihan dito sa amin. Parang pamilya narin ang turing namin kay Manang Bitang dahil maalaga siya at mapagmahal.

Nandito na siya samin since baby pa raw ako sabi ni mama.

"Iho. Nahanap mo na ba si Crystal?" she asked

Yeah. Kanina pa nila hinahanap tong pesteng babaeng to. Di ko alam kung bakit ganyan sila makareact eh. Kala mo naman kikidnapin, eh wala ngang perang pang ransom. They act as if kilalang kilala na nila to. They really cared. Is she that important to them? Knowing na hindi pa naman siya matagal samin, I guess?

I open the car's door. "Manang, can you get those materials?" Turo ko sa backseat

"Ah sige Iho." Kinuha na ni Manang Bitang ang mga materials tapos nakita kong tumingin siya kay Crystal. I saw a sad glimpse from Manang Bitang's eyes while looking at her. Or was it my imagination?

"Tan. Mukang mahimbing ang tulog ni Crystal oh" She mouthed Crystal "Buhatin mo nalang siya papuntang kwarto niya"

I knotted my brows. Hell what?!
Never in my life that I'll carry that girl!

"Hell no!" Inis kong baling kay Manang Bitang.

Akmang yuyugyugin ko na si Cristal para magising ay hinampas naman ni manang ang braso ko ng mahina.

"Ano ka bang bata ka! Kita mong mahimbing nang natutulog si Crystal oh. Pagod na pagod na yan panigurado. Swerte di yan napagod magmahal sayo."

Di ko masyado narinig ang huling sinabi ni Manang. Baka may sira na tenga ko.

Pagod daw. Pagod sa paglalandi kamo. Napa tsk nalang ako.

I have no choice but to carry her. Napabuntong hininga ako.

"Fine"

Nakita ko namang napangiti si manang Bitang. Binitbit na niya ang mga materials at naunang pumasok sa loob.

Tiningnan ko muna si Crystal. I admit, she's really beautiful. Maamo ang muka niya but it'll not erase the fact that she's using us to make her life good and easy.