His Fake Fidelity (Completed) [R-18]

32 : Katapatan

Katapatan

Hindi umiiral ang mundo dahil sa isang tao lamang.

At maslalong hindi ito hihinto dahil lang sa 'yo.

Gumising na lamang ako kinabukasan at nakita kong wala na si Raven sa aking tabi.

Halos mabilis na akong napatayo mula sa pagkakahiga ko ng makita ko ang oras. Agad akong napamura. It's already eight in the morning.

Biglaang kumalabog ang aking sikmura ng maamoy ko ang mabangong amoy ng pagkain mula sa kusina.

Agad naman akong dumiretso sa kusina at nadatnan ko nga si Raven na nagluluto.

Seriously, this man doesn't know how to cook for all I know. Ni magprito ng itlog sa tubig pa niya ginagawa.

But it is contrary to what I'm seeing him do now. He seems skillful in cooking.

Amoy na amoy ko ang bacon na niluluto niya pati na rin ang pritong itlog na nakahain na sa mesa.

" Goodmorning Chief!" Ngiting bati niya sa akin sabay alis ng apron niya para makalapit sa akin. Ginawaran niya ako ng malalim na halik ng maestatwa ako sa nakikita ko.

" Don't be shocked that I know how to cook Chief. I need to impress my woman" Puno ng panloloko niyang wika sa akin.

My forehead creased. What in the world is happening.

Bakit biglang umiba ang ihip ng hangin at bumalik sa dating Raven ang Aldamanteng ito.

" Hindi ba masakit ang ulo mo, Boss?" Tanong ko sa kanya.

Napangiti siya sa akin. Something is really wrong with how he acts now.

He failed to continue with his wedding yesterday and yet he seems fine like everything is just fine.

" I wouldn't be able to please the woman I love when I get to be weak, Chief. For now, I don't have any space for weakness or I'd lose you" Puno ng determinasyon niyang saad sa akin.

He pulled a chair for me and led me to seat beside him.

He looks dashingly handsome with his white shirt and sweatpants.

He place some rice and viand in my plate when he saw that I am not into what he is doing.

" Look Jord. Everything might seem questionable right now. You may even question the fact that I ditched a wedding yesterday but we both know I exactly did the right thing. I told before, trials will come ahead of us but now matter what happens, don't let go." Panimula niya sa akin. Napansin ko na naglagay siya ng isang basong kape sa harap namin. He sipped through it before placing it infront of me.

" I know that have hurt you beyond repair. Kahit hindi mo sabihin sa akin, nasaktan kita ng husto. Fuck I've even let you cry infront of me. And I hate myself for taking too long to realize everything, to bring back my memory. Chief, I made a one time mistake beyond my heart's control which I cannot fight. Huwag ka naman sanang bumitaw agad oh. Bigyan mo pa ako ng pagkakataon bumawi sa 'yo. Am I asking too much if I demand you to stay beside me and love me deeper? Because I do want it Chief. And when I say that I'm going to make it up to you, I really meant it." Ramdam ko ang seryoso sa kanyang boses. Ni wala akong mahimigang bahid ng kasinungalingan sa mga sinasabi niya.

" You know it's not easy Raven. Paano si Denise? You think you could just leave her like that? Matapos mo siyang pangakuan ng kasal, hindi mo itutuloy? After you proving your love to her infront of me, you would just make it seem as if it was an empty love? Raven, if this was the tract we were destined for. A tract that no one of us seem to weigh things right. We cannot be selfish. Alam mo bang halos ikadurog na ng puso ko ang pagpapaubaya ko sa 'yo kay Denise noon? Raven, I went through all those process of moving on. Iniyak ko na lahat ng puwede kong iiyak, ginawa ko na ang lahat ng puwede kong gawin, bumalik ka lang sa akin. But non of those things worked. At the end of the day, you would still say that you love your girlfriend. Kahit na paulit ulit kong sinasabi sa aking sarili na mahal mo ako at hindi mo lang ako maalala, hindi ko parin maitago ang katotohanang tao lang ako. May damdamin din naman ako, I get hurt when I am." I thanked the heavens for making me talk straight to him.