His Fake Fidelity (Completed) [R-18]

35 : Tahanan

Tahanan

Halos hindi ko siya matignan ng diretso sa pagkakataong ito dahil sa mga mata niyang umaapoy sa pag-ibig.

He is cruel. And dali niya akong saktan ngunit ang dali din niya akong yakapin sa bitag niyang wala akong kawala.

Pag-ibig.

" Come home Chief. I have been so homeless for quite so long and I badly need you home. I want you home, Chief because you are my home" Damang dama ko ang pagsusumamo ng kanyang boses. Sa bawat bigkas niya sa katagang kanyang binibitawan ay may kung anong epekto sa buong sistema ko.

" What have I even done to love this way Raven? I aced the art of medicine by heart but it seems that it's failing to do the same thing with how I feel for you. And when I say fail, it means it's madly, deeply, and hardly failing because of you. It beats eratically whenever you use your skill of talking. But most of the time, you give me tachycardia, Raven. I should be in a state of eupnea but you make me tachypnic and I hate it." Naramdaman ko ang pag-igting ng panga niya sa mga katagang sinabi ko.

" Don't you use your medical terms on me right now, Chief. Or else..-"

" Or else what Raven" Paghahamon ko sa kanya.

" You want me pissed of don't you?" Nahihimigan ko ang paglumanay ng kanyang boses.

" I want to be away from you. I want to get rid of you. Alam mo ba iyon. Gusto kong mawala ang sakit sa puso ko. Gusto kitang kalimutan pero hindi ko magawa. Bakit hindi ko magawa gawang kalimutan ka Aldamante. Sinubukan kong tanggalin ka sa systema ko ngunit memoryado ka na nito. Hindi ko kaya Boss. Dahil kahit anong paniniwala ang gawin ko sa aking sarili, hindi ko magawang kalimutan ka. I just want this pain to go away. Sa bawat pagkakataong nakikita ko kayong dalawa, nagseselos ako. Nagseselos ako Boss dahil sanay na akong ako lang eh. Noon ako lang" Nagkatinginan kaming dalawa at halos hindi ko lubos akalain na makikita ko siyang nagiba ng expresyon sa buong buhay ko.

Iba ang kulay ng kanyang mga mata. Iba din ang expresyon sa mukha niya.

He doesn't look like the Raven I've known. He looks more like a mad man.

" It's only you, Chief. I may have loved her the shortest time but it wasn't even half the love I have for you. And if jealousy is your problem then that's not a problem at all because I am badly smitten by you. I cannot love another woman because I only want you. If infidelity is what fears you the most then I would give you my word, Chief. I have never looked at another woman the moment I realized that I am madly in love with you. It was only once Chief. Isang beses lang. And it was because I wasn't myself. I lost my capability to remember you. But no matter the circumstances are, all of me will always be bound to you. Jord, I know you may be in pain now because of what is happening but please allow me to make it up to you. I don't want to see you being burdened because of me. I hate it. You know I hate it" Pinunasan niya ang mga tumutulong luha sa aking mata bago niya ito dampihan ng halik.

Niyakap niya ako buong magdamag habang tahimik naming pinagmamasdan ang kalangitan.

Medyo gumiginaw na din at lumalakas na ang hangin na para bang may paparating na bagyo.

" You're cold Chief, we need to go back." Wika sa akin ni Raven. Kahit nakayakap na kase siya sa akin, maginaw parin.

He held me by the waist while we both entered the beach house. Katapat ng kuwarto niya ang aking kuwarto kaya naman magkasabay parin kaming pumasok.

" Dito na ako, salamat" Magalang kong saad sa kanya. Tinitigan niya lamang ako na para bang may gusto siyang sabihin ngunit hindi niya masabi sabi.