Destiel Fluff

Sunshine

Cas was rejected from heaven and had his grace ripped from him. He was full human and there was no way to get his grace back. He took it really hard and was severely depressed. Dean tried the best he could to help him through it all but it was tough. Cas didn't really understand the concept of sleep the first few weeks of being human. Dean would have to lay next to him and hum a song to help him go to sleep. Even if it was at some shitty motel room Dean would still lay next to Cas and sing. His favorite was You Are My Sunshine It started out as innocent help, but after a few months of doing it Dean would wrap his arms around Cas and cuddle him when he sang a soft tune. He would run a hand through Cas's dark hair and Cas would groan softly, he loved it. One night Cas was having a spell where he felt particularly vulnerable and had been crying a lot.
"i miss my grace....." he sobbed under his breath.
"i know cas, just bare with me okay? being human isn't so bad once you get used to it." he kissed Cas's forehead. There was a really long silence before Cas suggested, "Dean? I know you and Sam are on a hunt right now but i would like to help."
"uh, are you sure you're up to it, buddy? you know how these things can go and sometimes it's not pretty. Also, you're still under the whether"
Cas thought for a moment.
"yes i'm sure, i need to get my mind off being human for a while."
Dean sighed, "alright, when Sam comes back from the store we can figure out a game plan." Cas's face lit up, and he smiled. Dean was taken aback. He hasn't seen him smile..... ever. it was a weird but incredible feeling to witness it. Dean thought to himself maybe he's coming out of it, if he is i like this human Cas thing.
When Sam came back to the motel, he came with 2 bacon cheeseburgers, a case of beer, and a salad. oh and some pie, obviously. "Alri-woah Cas somethings different about you..... You're.... Smiling"he looked him over trying to figure it out.
Cas cocked his head, "i don't understand.. there's nothing different"
"Yeah, Cas here wants to join the hunt with us"
Sam spit his beer. After a few seconds of choking he managed to reply, "WHAT? Dean he is newly human, he doesn't understand that if you get stabbed or shot there is little chance of surviving."
"Sam, i can handle myself." Cas was mildly offended at Sam's retort. He could handle it and be good at it too. Sam thought a moment, took a long swig of his beer, and said, "you know what? fine. come with us. but you've been warned and prepare yourself, okay? i think we have a werewolves's nest to take out."
Cas's posture and face hardened, "okay, let's go kill those evil sons of bitches."
Dean shot him a look, "HEY, That's my line!!" Cas gave him a shit eating grin at which Dean stuck his tongue out at him in response.

*At the Werewolf Nest*

"CAS AIM FOR THE HEART!!" Dean screamed from the fight between him and a werewolf. Cas forgot to take into account the fact he's never fired a gun in his life. But he did what he was told and a shot rang out in the small cabin and the monster landed with a thud on the floor. Breathing heavily and shaking like mad, Cas got his hearing back and shot three more. Sam and Dean were fighting tooth and nail with two werewolves that were biting and clawing at the boys, had them pinned to the floor. Cas aimed the gun at the one above dean and cocked it, ready to fire. When the gun clicked, Cas's stomach dropped.
Out of ammo.
The werewolf hear it too. He turned to look at Cas and smiled a toothy grin. "Haha, i smell a fallen angel. ooh this'll be fun."He threw himself at Cas and they both fell to the floor. Cas felt a sharp pain in his back and he yelled out in agony. He hasn't felt this before and it doesn't feel good. he called out to Dean. the werewolf only laughed in his face and mocked, "Dean! Dean! Help me the big bad wolf is going to eat me!!!" And without another word he took his claws and buried them into Cas's stomach and bit his throat. Cas's sight went blurry and he was terrified. What's happening? I don't understand!!! DEAN HELP ME!!!
Dean screamed Cas's name and yelled in anger as he shot the werewolf until he emptied the clip. Sam managed to get his off him and dead, both running to Cas's aid.
Sitting on the floor Dean put Cas's head in his lap and stroked his hair.
"hey, hey, it's okay. You'll be okay Cas just hold on."
He began frantically putting his hands on Cas's wounds to put pressure on them but Cas knew it wouldn't do anything.
"no no no no no, Cas stay with me PLEASE" Dean was sobbing and yelling at Cas for being so stupid for wanting to come on the hunt with them. Sam was right next to them crying too. Sam knew this wasn't going to end well, and he knew Cas thought so too. Sam couldn't watch so he went out to the impala and wait for Dean to come out.
"Dean..." Cas choked.
Dean leaned closer so he could hear his fading voice.
"Yeah buddy i'm here, what is it?"
"Can... you... sing... to me...."
Tears were rolling down his face now, "i'm scared dean, help me go to sleep...."
Dean laid on the floor with Cas and wrapped his arms around him, putting his bloody hand through his hair, and sang softly.
"you are my sunshine..."
"my only sunshine......."
"you make me happy...."
"....when skies are gray...."
Dean laid his head on Cas's chest, feeling his fading heartbeat.
bump
"you'll never know dear...."
bump bump
"how much i..."
bump
"love you..."
"please don't take...."
"Cas?"
Dean looked at Cas's face, there was a faint smile through the tears. but he was gone. Dean sobbed loudly and sang, "my sunshine away......"