Scars

Part 1//Firsts//Havana

Song: The Reason by Hoobastank(dont play it till i say so haha)

Havana's POV
"Walk?" I asked my voice still scratchy making me sound even more like death or the devil himself.
"Hey Vana." He said as he peered his head around a huge boquette of roses. I smiled as did he.
"You can come in you know." I said and let out a little laugh making my stomach hurt as he let out a little laugh as well as he stepped into my room and placed down the roses at the table that was at the foot of my bed.
"Hey." I said and smiled wider.
"How you feel??" He asked and pulled up the chair that was next to my bed closer to my bed.
"Like ass." I said and let out a little laugh as did he.
"Well you don't look it so." He said and grabbed my hand smiling.
"Get that cheesy ass grin off your face." I said and smiled.
"I can't." He said and laughed as did why.
"Why not?" I asked and cocked up my eyebrow making him laugh.
"I lied." He said and smirked making my stomach turn.
"To who?" I asked almost afraid.
"The nurse. She told me that I must be very happy that my girlfriend is still alive." He said making me smile wider.
"And I went with it. I didn't stop her and tell her that we weren't dating. I just went with it." He said and played with my hand making me all tingly inside.
"Well Walker it isn't nice to lie." I said trying not to laugh.
"Yeah I know I know. But I mean, my stomach flipped inside out when she said that we were dating and that you talked about me a lot. But my stomach flipped in a good way." He said and smiled at me, letting me actaually look at his eyes and notice the true beauty behind all that hides him.
"Walk it's not nice to lie. You know that I like you hell I even told you that I loved you, please don't take advantage of me and use me like Kod did." I mumbled as I felt my eyes pooling with tears as I looked down at my lap taking my hand out of his. I ran my left hand over my bandaged right arm trying not to let the tears pool out but they had already started.
"He said that he loved me, he told me that no one will ever love me like Kyle did other then him, then he comes to my house after I finally beat my monsters inside and out of me and cuts the word fighter into me. I let him in and see the real me and he abused it. Said the same things that my father did and the same things that Kyle said the first day that I met him when you guys moved in. I don't want you here, near me, or breathing the same air as me let alone alive. You are a disappointment. I wish to never see you again, nor do I want to breath the same are as you. You are better off dead. Maybe they are right. Maybe I am fighting for no reason." I said as the tears fell down my face and neck.
"Don't you DARE say that Vana." Walker said as he grabbed my hand and held it close to him making my heart flutter and stomach turn.
"I would never do that to you." He said as I looked up at him.
"I love you Vana. With all my heart. I never wanted to hurt you, break you, bruise you, or scar you. And i'm sorry." he said and gave me a weak smile.
"I love you too." I said as my heart fluttered more then humanly possible as I looked at him taking in all of his features.
"Get some rest." He said and kissed the top of my head as my eyes started to flutter shut.
"Will you leave?" I asked holding his hand a little tighter.
"Not unless you want me to." He said and smiled at me as I held his hand a little tighter.
"I take that as a no." He said and let out a little chuckle as I released pressure on his hand and smirked as I shut my eyes letting sleep adopt me. I felt his hand leave mine and heard the scratching of pencils up agenst paper making me smile.
"Get that smirk off your face i'm trying to concentrate." He said making me smile wider as he grunted and then let out a little chuckle. I also let out a little laugh and opened my eyes looking at him as he was writing something down.
"May I do something?" He asked as he pulled out his phone.
"Shoot." I said and through my hands up in surrendor allowing him to do whatever.(Play song)He went onto his Spotify and turned on a song that has a nice easy simple tone. Sweet. Vulnerable. Innocent. Weak yet strong. Happy yet a meaning.
"This is a poem that I tried to write, I suck at writing but music helps me and I heard this song and instantly thought of you. This is for you Havana." He said and smiled as he paused the song and restarted it.(Pause song and restart it but don't play song till I say so)
"Imma read it first then play the song." He said as his face grew more red making me smile.
"Of course." I said and smiled as he held out the book and read aloud.
"I need you to know
That I am starting over.
I am going to show you
A new side of me.
Nobody is perfect.
I never meant to hurt you.
I am going to change myself,
And I found a reason for that,
And that reason is you." He started as my eyes filled with water. Gah Havana you are so weak when it comes to words. He looked up at me and smiled as he read on, his finger hovering over the play button for the song.
"I wish I had a way to help,
My shoulder is here to cry on,
And I wish I could take all the pain away.
I never meant to do those things to you,
I am not perfect,
And I am doing this for you.
I am fixing myself for you.
I found a reason to show,
And that reason is you." His finger pressed down on the play button as the song started again making my stomach all warm and tingly inside.(Play song)
"This is the way I am,
This is the way I was,
But I am changing it,
For you." He said as the song played on and as the tears in my eyes fell down my face.
"Did you like it?" He asked and let out a little chuckle making him and I both laugh a little harder.
"It was perfect." I said as more tears fell down my face and he cupped my face with his hands, his thumbs wiping away my tears. Our faces inches away, our breathes mixing with each others. He looked at my lips and then my eyes again and smiled trying to act normal. I smiled as well as his face tilted a little and a shoot of electricity came surging through me as all of my emotions tried to take over my body but only one did. Love. I pressed my lips back to his as our lips connected seeming to be missing puzzle peices, finally finding our match in this big ass puzzle. My whole body enflamed with emotions that I have never really felt and his lips brought warmth to my whole body even though he only kissed my lips. Oh my gosh. Walker was kissing me. Walker Jobes was kissing me. And I was kissing him. Just like how all my charactors get there happy endings, I might just finally get mine.

AWWWWW IM CRYING THIS IS SOO GOOD! Lemme thank Christain again for the amazing words, they blend with my chapters and explain my charactors soooooo welllllllll!! AND HAPPY SATURDAY!!! Um I hope that yall liked this chapter and if you did be sure to color that star orange and comment you thounghts!! Also either follow me or add this book to your reading lists to see when I post a new chapter which is normally every Wednesday and Saturday, and maybe an extra day! Love you all and untill then,, PEACE
~sarah