Scars

Part 1//Flashbacks//Havana

Song: Scars by Sam Smith

Havana's POV
As soon as school was let out and rushed out of school to my car. I started to drive home as I heard the reving of an engigne, as it got closer and closer to my car.
"UGH!" I yelled inside my car as I turned up the radio turning onto my street. I pulled into the drive way and placed my head on the steering wheel trying to steady my breathings, but yet again. Since that day, I don't know what steady breathing is. Walker pulled his bike into his driveway across the street from my house and hopped off with Ceceil following him and Nodan and Dalton getting off their bikes. I sighed and turned off my car and opened my door to hear all the boys laughing and talking.
"Kod said that he will be here soon. He said that he's gotta take care of some buisness." Dalton said and smirked.
"I swear if he is getting laid again." Nodan said and rolled his eyes. My stomach turned at the hearing of Kodan getting laid when in reality it was a cover up for seeing me.
"Bro how come your brother gets more action then you?" Walker asked and hit Nodan in the arm as I grabbed my bag out of the back seat of my car.
"How come you get the same action from the same girl everynight?" Nodan asked and tilted his head twords Ceceil and my stomach turned more at the thought of them doing it.
"It's called commitment. Maybe you should get some." Dalton said and snickered.
"Says the gay that can't get with a dude." Nodan said and laughed as did Walker.
"Go back to fucking the same three bitches every night asshole." Dalton said and crossed his arms.
"At least I CAN fuck bitches." Nodan said and laughed even harder. Dalton rolled his eyes.
"Go back to fucking Clara." Dalton spat and stormed inside making me let out a little chuckle.
"Best sex i've ever had." Walker said and smirked as they all followed Dalton inside the house. I rolled my eyes and walked inside my house, it being pitch black, a sign of no recent activity. I turned on the lights and let out a sigh as I walked to the back door to see Kod with a boquette of flowers and a small box of choclates and a new book and pencils.
"What is all this for?" I asked as I stepped outside walking closer to him.
"This is just to make up for what I said earlier. I honestly really regret it and I never meant it like that. I'm so sorry princess." He said and walked closer to me and planted a kiss on my forehead.
"I got you a new book so you can write me more stories and I can read them to you. Or you can use this book for your journal entries and I can read those to you too." He said and passed me the book and pencils making me smile.
"This will be a new book." I said and kissed his jaw making him smile.
"Lets get inside and get these things in water." He said and held up the flowers making us both laugh as we walked inside. I found a vase and filled it with water as he cut them and placed them in the vase. He put the choclates in the fridge and kissed me on the lips sweetly. He never does that.
"I love you Vana." He said and smiled as did I.
"I love you too Kod." I said and kissed his lips again making him smile.
"Ready for another entry?" He asked as he pulled my old journal out of his bag.
"Yepper." I said and smiled. We both walked up stairs to my room, a simple black walled room with a white bed, hardwood flooring, and a mirrored walk in closet. My walls were plastered with different shades of purple and small papers with multiple words on them. My fondest memories. A wooden block with a long pin stood on my floor with loads of papers stacked. All the entries that Kodan has read to me. I flopped onto my bed as Kodan did as well and I curled into his chest as he began to read.
"Dear self, Hi. My name is Havana Wilde and right now I am 14 years old. And I have short term memory loss." He began as I cuddled closer to his chest taking in his sweet scent of his bike and his calonge in the perfect mixture.
"Today my mother died. And I cried all the tears that I have. But I still have Kyle, and Walker, and Kod. And Jones" He started.
"Dad is now in jail and I hope to never see him again. I wanna move in with Walker and Kyle but I know Jones would never let me. But let me start from the beginning of the day, or as much as I can remember." He said and looked down at me.
"It's okay for you to cry babygirl." He said and kissed my head.
"Okay" I said and nodded my head as I already felt the tears swelling my eyes.
(Flashback 3 years ago Havana's POV)
"MOM!!" I yelled as I hopped down the stairs to see my mother and father yelling yet again.
"I'm taking Vana to school. She doesn't deserve to be in this type of environment." My mother yelled as tears streamed down her face.
"Grab your bag Vana we are leaving." Mother said as she stormed out of the house with the keys to her car. I grabbed my bag and slipped on my shoes and ran outside to the car that I will hopefully be able to drive.
"You okay mom?" I asked looking at her with tears in her eyes.
"God damnit he might as well just kill me if he really doesn't want me in his life." My mother said as more tears fell down her face.
"NO!" I yelled as we came to a red light.
"No! If he wants to kill you then he's gotta kill me too. I go where ever you go momma." I said and smiled a small smile giving my mother hope. Or at leats I hope I gave her hope. She smiled back at me that same smile as we pulled into the school parking lot.
"I love you momma. I will see you after school today." I said and opened my door to see Kyle, Walker and Kod all waiting for me.
"I love you so much princess. But promise me that you will stay strong no matter what alright?" She asked and gave me a weary smile. I kissed her cheeck and smiled.
"Always." I said.
"I want you to go live your life to the fullest. I will be with you every step of the way no matter what. You keep writing songs and books. Go chase after Walker, I know how much you love him." My mom said and wiggled her eye brows making me laugh.
"MOM!" I yelled and playfully hit her arm making her flinch.
"Just go live life no matter what happens. Don't be mourning over me. Go get waisted, go meet people, go VOUNTARILY have sex, go get tattoos, and always remember that I will be here every step of the way." She said and smiled at me.
"I will love you forever and always Havana Ember. I love you." She said and kissed the top of my head.
"I love you too. But what is al-" I started.
"Now go get to class. I don't need your teachers yelling at me. Plus those boys are waiting for you. Go get em tiger." My mom said and smiled as I got out of the car.
"I love you, forever and always."She said and crossed her heart as did I.
"Forever and always." I said and shut my door and turned to look at the boys with tears in my eyes.
"What's wrong Vana?" Kyle asked walking a little closer to me.
"It's my mothers last day. And she is really scaring me." I said and felt my legs buckle but a pair of strong arms cought me before I fell to the ground. I looked up to see Walker holding me rubbing my back trying to calm me down as I cried into his shirt, scared to see what I come home to after school ends. School went by faster then I wanted it to, making me regret waking up this morning. It started to rain when Jones picked up Walker, Kyle and I. We all turned up the radio signing and I acted like I forgot about this morning but in reality my stomach turned with every nearing corner as we came home.
"Thanks for the ride Jones!" Kyle said and Walker just nodded his head as they both ran over to their house. Jones and I got out of the car and walked into the house to see it pitch black signing that no one was home which made my stomach hurt even more.
"MOM?! DAD!?" Jones yelled as we walked around the house to see the light in mom's office on. Oh no. I already started to cry as I dialed 911 and placed my phone in my back pocket so they could hear what was going on. Jones and I walked around the corner as the light got brighter.
"Okay only you are allowed in mom's writing area so you check there and I will check the art lab and sound box." Jones said as he started to walk away from me.
"Jones." I whisper yelled.
"I'm scared." I whispered as he cupped my cheeks with both his large hands.
"Just yell if you need me." He said and kissed my head as he walked back twords the art lab and sound box. My mother was a music producer so she had an art lab to make the covers for the cd's, a sound box for recording, and a writing cube where she wrote music and took clients. She always worked from home and seeing that her and I are so close I am allowed in all of the rooms and I help her write songs seeing that my writing is so good aperently. I walked ever so slowly to the cube to see the doors shut making me cry harder and more worried. I gripped the door handle and turned it ever so slowly and closed my eyes as I opened the door scared to see what I would find. I opened my eyes and screamed at the top of my lunges to see a horrifing sight. I saw my mother in her chair with my father behind her holding her favorite pen, shaking it into her neck. Her writing pen. Her sharpest pen. Her most deadly pen. He looked up at me and smiled a dark smile and pushed the pen deeper into her neck as blood streamed from her neck covering his hand and her pen. My mothers eyes flickered shut as my father lodged the pen deeper in her neck practically shoving the whole thing in the side of her neck causing an instant death. And there was nothing I could do to stop him. I screamed louder as Jones came running to me and as my father let go of the pen that was barely visible. I cried harder into Jones as my father just stood there with a smile on his face. A horrifing smile. A smaile that only the true devil would wear on his face. I heard the sirens coming but they were to late. And I was also to late. I could have saved her but instead I was a little bitch and was to scared.
"Oh also, she wanted to give this to you." My father said as he handed me my mothers favorite writing book that only she let me read. It didn't have anything on it and it still looked brand new. I took it from him as he walked to the front of the house and placed both of his hands out infront of him. He was giving up. Today will also be the day I give up.
(End of flashback,, still Havana's POV)
"And today will be the day that I give up. Because today is the day that I lost my best friend, and the one that I could always go to. RIP mom. And I will love you forever and always. Havana." Kod said as he ripped the page out of my diray and handed it to me. I looked at it and cried even harder as he held me in his arms.
"You know, this is the one day that I did remember." I said as I looked at the page that was covered in dried tear stains. He held me tighter as I closed my eyes letting my tears pool out. I opened my eyes and looked at the paper and smiled.
"RIP Mom." I said as I crossed my heart and stuck the paper on the stake with the rest of the papers. I curled into Kodan's chest and cried and cried untill I had no tears left.
"Happy three years momma." I whispered as I cried some more.
"Happy two years Kyle." Kodan said as I cried harder.
"Happy two years Kyle." I whispered as another tear rolled down my cheek.
"I miss you both so much." I whispered into Kodan's chest.
"They would be so proud of you Vana." Kod said and kissed the top fo my head.
"My mother would tell me to get a thicker skin and Kyle would just laugh." I said and let out a little chuckle knowing that it was true.
"Then do it." Kod said as I shut my eyes and let sleep take over my body. Then do it Vana. Stay strong for Kyle and mom. Mom nor Kyle would be proud of the life that I am living. So do something about it.
"Kod?" I asked and looked up at him.
"Yes babygirl?" He asked.
"Maybe we should tell people. About us." I whispered and created shapes into his chest.
"When ever you want baby." He whispered and kissed the top of my head.
"Tomorrow?" I asked and looked up at him.
"Tomorrow." He said and smiled and kissed me ever so sweetly.
Tomorrow.

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~Sarah