Scars

Part 1//Trust?//Havana

Song: Belong be Cash Cash, Dashboard Confessional

Havana's POV
"We are here Vana." He said, his voice so soft and gentle as the bike came to a stop making my eyes open. I looked around to see trees, more trees, and more trees. Home.
"Home." He said and smiled as did I.
"I've missed this place." I said as I untangled my arms from around him giving a slight shiver through out my body as I took of the helmate and stood up off the bike as did he.
"Is the house still here??" I asked and placed the helmate on the back seat of the bike and looked around.
"I mean I would think so." He said and placed his helmate on the front seat.
"Wanna go look for it?" He asked and stuffed his hands in his pockets making me smile.
"Duh." I said and laughed as I ran twords the direction that the house would be in hoping that the home that I had created all my memories in was still standing. I heard branches and leaves crushing behind me knowing that it was Walker making me run faster and come to an instant stop.
"Have you ever thought about joining track?" He asked trying to catch his breath making me laugh.
"Yeah, but i'm to fat for that and people would make fun of me." I said and laughed and he shot me an evil glance.
"One you are no where near fat, and two, if you are on my arm no one is gonna even think about saying a word to you babygirl." He said and wrapped his arm around my waist making my breath hitch making him laugh. He kissed my cheeck sending me over the roof with adreniline making me smile at nothing.
"Well looks like we found home." He said and looked up to a huge log cabin with windows and a door. I smiled looking at the home that practically had all my firsts. The good and bad. My first kiss with Kyle. The first time I had a sleepover with Jones. The first time Walker showed me how to make a fire. The first time my mother sang to me. And the bads. The first, third, and sixeth time my father raped me. The first time Kyle starved me. The first time I found out what abuse was and that your so called best friend should not do such a thing to you. The first time Walker attacked me. The first time Walker almost raped me leaving my neck black and blue. The first time I realized that I had short term memory loss. The first time I was sent to the hospital. The first time I cried over Walker because he broke me in so many ways possible.
"Damn." He mumbled and then sighed looking down at me.
"What?" I asked looking up at him.
"You are thinking of all the bad that happened here. You shivered and your breath hitched. I am finally noticing every little thing about you and I was such a horrible person. I don't deserve to have you in my life, like not even close Vana." He said and sighed.
"Yeah you were bad, but that is all in the past. I trust you Walker." I said and gave him a weak smile making him smile.
"I'm a horrible boyfriend." He said making my breath hitch. Boyfriend? Woah wait we are dating now??
"No. Not even close Walker. I love you so much and wouldn't have it any other way." I said and gave him a comforting smile making him smile back up at me.
"Wanna go for a swim??" He asked me and cocked up his eye brows making me smile.
"Sure." I said and let out a little laugh as I ran out of his embrace taking off my shirt and shorts running twords the water. I herad him laugh and chase after me as I ran to the waters edge and stood there letting the freezing water hit my toes.
"HOLY SHIT IT'S FREEZING!!" I yelled and ran away from the water as Walker came running twords me with his arms out.
"WALK I SWEAR." I yelled as he scooped me up over his shoulder and running us into the water making me scream as he laughed.
"You love me." He said through laughs making me hit his back.
"SO!?! THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU RUN ME TO THE WATER!!" I yelled hitting his back more as he dropped me into the water. I popped up from under the surface screaming.
"Holyshit holyshit holyshit it's COLDDDDDDDD!" I yelled and ran twords Walker wrapping my arms aound his torso collecting all the heat he had left. He wrapped his arms around my back and pulled me closer to him letting me collect his warmth. I felt my teeth start to chatter as I pressed my head up agenst his naked chest making him laugh.
"Aw is my babygirl cold?" He asked in a baby like tone and laughed.
"Yes I am freezing. Thanks for noticing." I said snapping back at him making him laugh.
"Friskey are we?" He asked and laughed a little more then kissed the top of my head making me shutter under his touch.
"I wanna get out." I said.
"In a minute. I just wanna keep this moment. Right here. Just like when we were younger and how you would hold onto me when you were cold." He said. I remember those days. A wave of silence ran over us, but not an awkward silence, a peaceful silence.
"Now can we get out?" I asked looking up at him making him laugh.
"Yes babygirl. I will start a fire and we can cuddle." He said making me smile. Yes please. Him and I walked hand in hand out of the water and then I ran up to the cabin and changed into a pair of joggers and a neon purple sports bra. I walked out of the room to see Walker in grey joggers and curled up on the couch.
"Hey." I said and sat next to him on the couch as he wrapped his arms around me pulling me close.
"Hey babygirl." He said ever so queitly as I curled up into his chest.
"Walk?" I asked, not moving an inch of my body.
"Yes babygirl?" He said and looked down at me as I sat up and played with my fingers.
"What are we? I mean ever since the hospital you have been all goody goody with me and I mean I love it and I love you and you call me yours and you always call me babygirl and earlier you called yourself my boyfriend and you never inturupted the nurse when she called you my boyfriend so I am just a lit-" I started but was cut off with a warmth and passion surging through me. He was kissing me. On the lips. Again. I smiled and kissed him back as his hand went from my back to my thighs and his hands moved up and down my legs ever so gently making me all tingly inside. I slowly started to fall back and Walker followed his lips not leaving mine as I was laying down on the couch and he was hovering over me. His hands roamed my body leaving a trail of fire every where he touched making me shiver. His lips detached from mine and his lips traveled down my jaw and to my neck and I felt my breathing stop. Just like the first time this happened.
Havana's POV,, Flashback 3 years ago.
"Walker stop!!" I yelled and playfully pushed him off of me as he just came flying back onto me tickling me more and more. I smiled and laughed harder as did he as he flopped on top of me, our faces inches apart.
"Whatcha looking at??" I asked and let out a little chuckle as he just kept staring at me.
"You." He said and smirked as his lips came crashing down on mine, my first kiss with Walker Jobes. YES!!
"I want you." He mumbled.
"And I need you." He said breathlessly.
"Because i'm not gonna loose a dare." He said and smirked at me making me confused.
"Of being the first guy to take everything away from you." He said and smiled at me as his lips attached to my neck and I felt him lighlty nibbling on my skin making me scream. My father said that to me the first time he raped me.
"WALKER STOP!" I yelled and tried pushing him off of me when instead he just attached his lips to another spot on my neck making me moan yet scream.
"WALKER STOP IT!" I yelled and pushed him off of me as he attched himself one last time on my neck.
"I'M NOT A VIRGIN!!" I yelled and pushed him off of me making him instantly stop and look at me disgusted.
"Slut." he mumbled as he got off the couch and walked away letting me cry in silence. I should have just let it happen. I mean it's not like I haven't had it happen before.
"Vana??" Kyle asked and knocked on the door to the cabin making my head shoot up and making me cry some more.
"I'm here V. I'm here." He said as he ran up to me and held me close in his embrace making me smile. I looked up at him and smiled as did he.
"I love you Kyle." I said and cried into his chest.
"I love you more Vana banana." He said and kissed the top of my head.
End of Flashback,, Present day Havana's POV
I felt my eyes pool with tears and Walk came to a halt and looked up at me.
"It's haunting me too Vana." He said and sat up pulling me up as well as I wrapped my arms around him and cried into his chest.
"I'm so sorry Vana. I wish I could take back everything I have done that has hurt or scared you in any way shape or form possible, but I can't." He said and looked at me.
"I love you so much, always remember that." He said and kissed my temple where I had fresh stitches thanks to Kodan.
"I love you too Walk." I said and smiled up at him and he pecked my lips, fast and simple, but still enought to give me the chills.
"Hey babygirl?" He asked me and I smiled up at him.
"Do you trust me?" He asked making me cock up an eyebrow.
"Um yeah??" I asked almost questioning my answer making him laugh.
"Simple yes or no." He said and smiled.
"Yes?" I said and smirked making him laugh.
"Great, go put on a shirt." He said and smiled as he stood up and threw on his shirt.
"Um okay??" I said and grabbed my shirt and slipped it on over my head.
"Let's go." He said and stuck out his hand for me to take it.
"Girlfriend." He said and smiled at.
"Boyfriend." I said and smiled. I like those names.

HOLY TISH WHAT IS WALKER GONNA DO I IS SHOOK!!! also HAPPY SATURDAY!!! I hope that yall liked this chapter and if you did be sure to color that lil star orange and comment your thoughts and what you think is about to go down. Also add this book to your reading lists or just follow me to see when I post which is normally every Wednesday and Saturday and maybe an extra day if I have time haha. I hope you all enjoyed  this chapter and untill next time,, PEACE
~Sarah