pregnant by the gang leader[completed]

heyo

hello darlings. this is not a chapter and i'm sorry☹️. yes i'm still sad... but i will be updating sometime this weekend.  a few of you asked what's wrong and i decided to just vent on here. no judgment...  so i have alopecia areata. if you read this you'll understand my disease....

it also has to do with stress... when i was little i went through a lot of shit. i wore wigs and when i got to middle school i was bullied almost everyday.... my grades dropped and i started to get depressed and became antisocial. 6 grade i found wattpad and it's been my escape since. when i got to 8th grade i wandy getting bullied as much. but one day asked if i had cancer and tried to pull my wig off in front of everyone in class. i missed a month of school, i was depressed, i stayed inside, i read all day and i was thinking about suicide. they put me in therapy and it didn't help. it made me feel crazy....

when i got back to school i started to smoke weed, it numbed my pain and it was better then hurting myself.... i picked my grades up and had straight A's. when i got to 9th grade i was smoking and drinking at school... my grades fell, again and more family problems started to build up. this year, 10th grade i promised that i was gonna change and focus on school, which i've been doing... but in the being of the school year i lost someone very important to me and became depressed again. my family started to fall apart again and i started to cut...

i lost a lot of friends which makes me sad but it is what it is..... anyways. i'm picking my grades up but i have waayyy more family problems and it sucks... but i'll be 18 soon and it won't be my problem no more.

(question #1 can i be a chicken strip?)
1. chicken nuggets are waayy better😩

(question #2 what is the baby's name?)
2. i don't know yet, any suggestions ??

(question #3 what's your favorite genre to write?)
3.  romance, when i let my imagination fly it gives me hope that maybe someone will love me for me:(

(question #3 what's your favorite song?)
4. favorite song ? hmmmm. AFTER THE STORM

my hair is way longer now. it's all the way to my shoulders. i can even put it in a bun lol

it's tiny. but it's all i have... before i shaved my head(back in like 2012) the doctor told me if i ever lost my eyebrows my hair would never come back, and guess what. i lost my eyebrows, my hair is coming back. slowly but surely. i have a lot of bald spots because i use glue to keep my wig on and because i'm stressing. it's also super thin.... but yeah. this is why i'm always depressed.

i just want to be a pretty girl... with long hair, and real eyebrows... and i can't be.... i hate myself so much....

but i'll be fine.... i will update this weekend, be ready loves. until then

xoxo, mireyaa